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[codexthepriest]

I can't be blamed for kind of being freaked out after the whole Halloween thing. Seriously, werewolves? Zombies? This is the kind of stuff I'm supposed to only have to deal with in video games. I don't even like them there. Graveyards in my game creeped me out, okay? So does the weird death animation stuff

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[scientificsnark]

"You too, huh?" Rodney said, giving the woman watching herself on the screen a sympathetic look. As sympathetic as Rodney McKay could manage, anyway.

He'd never watched...his show, although the bookshelf occasionally tossed a reel or two of Stargate Atlantis at him. He always ignored them. He wouldn't have gotten anything out of it by watching except depression and self-consciousness. The camera did add ten pounds, after all.

[codexthepriest]

I don't even notice anyone around. I guess it's because it's hard to look away. It probably shouldn't have surprised me as much as I am that someone is around, and even notices what I'm watching.

"Um, I guess," I reply, shifting uncomfortably. I am almost tempted to turn it off, but it's to the point that I need to see it to the end. "Does this happen often?"

[scientificsnark]

"If you're lucky," said Rodney. "And by lucky I mean...not. It could be worse," he continued, "At least you're not from a comic book."

He wished he was from a comic book. Except then he'd probably have to wear a stupid outfit.

[codexthepriest]

"Are you from a comic book?" I ask, feeling bad right after I say it. It's really not my business. I don't even know his name. "Um. You don't have to answer that."

[plntfood]

Mathias has seen his own reel and while the events aren't the same, he still remembers the way it felt to realize he's not even a real person. With a frown, he ends up sitting on the couch beside Cyd before he realizes she might not want him to see this.

"Sorry," he says promptly, feeling like he's been apologizing a lot lately.

[codexthepriest]

I guess it can be worse. Someone I don't know could've walked in, instead of Mathias. Still, realizing he's watching isn't exactly easy. It's a little embarrassing, actually.

"It's - it's okay," I reply, sighing. On the screen, Zaboo is going a little crazy with trying to extract information from the guy. Hugging my legs, I turn my attention back to the screen. "I don't even remember any of this. This has to be in the future or something."

At least that means I'm actually still there even though I'm here. Though I have to start wondering if me being there is a good thing - it seems like all I've done is make matters worse. Figures.

[plntfood]

"I think that happens sometimes," Mathias answers, still feeling a little uncomfortable and awkward having seen this. When he'd been watching his film, he doesn't remember being embarrassed, but he has no idea what other people might have felt.

"Is this the first time you found it?" he asks.

[codexthepriest]

"Yeah," I say. I'm not even sure what to think about all this. I mean, I know enough people here to know just because I've seen them in films doesn't mean they're not real. It's the same thing with me.

I can't believe people would watch me, of all people.

"Is it weird I want to find more?" I ask, as the credits start rolling. It's really short, I notice. Definitely not even TV show length. That's sort of strange, too. "I mean, okay, it's really weird and...a little disconcerting but -"

But my guild is in shambles. It's more or less seeing my life in shambles, considering how little I did besides the game back home.

[practicallyaguy]

"Woah."

Zoe was no stranger to pop culture. Hell, she practically bathed in it and spent a lot of time catching up on what she missed. Watching it was one thing, being fully aware that certain people were fictional and certain other ones weren't was something else.

Having it be a friend? That was just mean. Standing behind the couch, she just sort of gawked."Um...yeah. Woah."

[codexthepriest]

It's hard not to feel self-conscious when I realize someone is watching my life right along with me. And, okay, it's Zoe at least. There's a lot worse people I can think of when it comes to who might walk in on me watching this.

"I just found it today," I say, turning my head to look at Zoe over my shoulder. "I guess it's not so bad, right? I can see what's going on back home."

Too bad it's a whole lot of bad. Any thoughts of not being real will probably sink in eventually. Or maybe it won't, and I won't have to freak out.

[practicallyaguy]

It would be nice to know what was going on at home. Did they get arrested (again)? Were they able to see the movie? How was Linus doing?

A whole lot of questions but not a lot of answers and Zoe was kind of okay with not knowing. This went double if all info was going to come like this. Public viewings were definitely bullshit. Moving around to the front of the sofa Zoe flopped down.

"Well that's bogus. How bad is it?"

[codexthepriest]

"Nothing's like I remember," I reply, shaking my head. That's actually the worst part of all this. If this place is going to give me these shows, it could have at least shown me where this all began. "And the worst part is, I don't even know how any of this happened."

[wishesandsmoke]

"Cyd, are you okay?" Eden asks, walking up behind her, gaze averted. There are plenty of people who have to deal with that all the time here and, for the most part, she's grown accustomed to it, but that doesn't mean she's about to spy on someone else's life. Not, at least, someone she already knows. "Is that... is it you?" It could always be a doppelganger, after all.

[codexthepriest]

I guess it's weird. I'm sitting here watching myself, knowing I'm from - a TV show? Maybe? I don't know - and all I am worrying about is what's going on. Maybe that says something about me, I don't know.

"Yeah," I reply, embarrassed a little bit just because of what I'm doing on screen. Apparently things are so bad I'm stooping to the level of creating the closest thing to war in and out of my game I've ever been through. "This is way into my future, though, I think."

[wishesandsmoke]

Eden nods absently. It has to be weird enough, just seeing one's own face on the screen; watching the future, a future she won't even get to because she's here instead, just strikes Eden as too surreal to contemplate fully.

"You're handling it well," she observes instead. "Most people I've seen get pretty upset."

[codexthepriest]

I guess I'm used to being someone else that it doesn't bother me so much that I'm not real. That's kind of hard to explain to someone who isn't into the games I play, and I have a feeling she'd just look at me weird if I said it outloud. I still don't really know why anyone would watch a show like mine. That's actually the weird part for me.

God, but I bet my horrible brush with Stunt Guy was out there for all to see. That knowledge I could've lived without knowing. It was mortifying just with all the people around who saw it.

"I don't know. Getting upset won't change anything. At least I really doubt anyone has seen this before," I say, attempting to crack a smile. It doesn't work. "Is it kind of weird I want to see more? I think I might."

[callofkaren]

"This is always kind of painful." It stood to reason that anyone around was fictional in some way or another, as far Karen could figure out, but that didn't mean it wasn't a pleasant thing to realize. She knew from experience. "And awkward, that too."

[codexthepriest]

There's worst people that could've walked in. At least Karen knows about gaming, so the lengths I'm apparently going isn't too crazy.

Okay, it's still pretty crazy. Though in my defense, Zaboo's doing the worst part of it.

"I can't believe people watch me," I admit, letting out a strained kind of laugh. And here I thought I was really, really boring. "I don't recognize anything going on in this. It's weird."

[callofkaren]

At least she wasn't freaking out and demanded Karen leave, or anything similar, because stuff like this was easier to take with someone else there. No matter how embarrassing it was.

"If it's any help," Karen said as she sat down next to Cyd, "I know exactly how you feel. The show I'm from was a fake documentary about our office. Exciting stuff."

[codexthepriest]

"It looks like things have gotten a lot more exciting since I've been gone," I admit, raising a brow when Zaboo goes so far as to try to suffocate the guy they were 'torturing' for information. "This is crazy. Things can't have changed this much back home."