hmm
things are strange lately. i feel like i am slipping into dream that has a bitter aftertaste. everything seems fake to me. did you know that christmas was first invented for people in the time of the great depressions to make them feel better? yeah, i didnt know that either. what a trip. well it seems to be the exact thing that is bringing me down. i cant seem to afford to get anyone that i care about anyhting for christmas. i hate my pretend job. sometimes i make out well and sometimes i fail miserably. to all the servers out there, good luck to you in the christmas season. people suck and are relentless in making yuour life a living hell. baaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1