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[the_big_e_247]

ok thast cool dudes... i write my damn life story in the last one, and all i get is like 6 comments minus my own.. this is unacceptable!!!... i know i have more friends than that because my friends list says so... i know more people read my shit even though they dont have an lj because they have told me so... and i know i have some credibility cuz

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[ambientraveler]

OK here goes, I'll admit with that first comment I skimmed thru ur entry cuz I was tired. But now that I have fully read it, grasped it, and processed it here goes. First off, I don't think you used ONE fuckin period in that whole entry, hahaha. You fuckin love ur three dots (i forget the name for them). First off I don't think falling in love is an accident. You make that assumption only for the fact that the term falling is meant as an accident. A fall isn't always such. The way I see it, the 'falling' just kinda refers to more of a process. The gradual action of falling in love. But I do agree with you in the fact that once you are actually in love you're not exactly aware and it is a surprise, the same way a gradual action eventually reaches an end point, in this case an abrupt one. So its not exactly an accident but a pleasant surprise. Love is essentially surprise, because like you said you never know who you're going to fall in love with but once you do you should fight for it and make every effort to keep it because from my understanding, love IS indeed something beautiful. But your free will point is slightly contradictory. The idea of free will means that we are in control of our own lives. Now I like the idea of free will for that one reason, I don't like the idea that my life is already pre-destined. Its like WTF? Do I even matter then? Because if its all pre-destined then I'm not in control so therefore if their is free will then we are in control of who we fall in love with because thats the whole idea of free will, there is no preset path for who we fall in love with. Technically speaking with free will who we fall in love is the one we were meant to be with cuz there is no other option, we are in control. But who even knows if we do have free will, we may be on pre-ordained paths already. We can never be sure of that until we get to the otherside. As far as love goes I don't even know if I have a credible idea or theory on it because I have never been in love. I hope to be someday but thats up to me I suppose. That's all I got to say.

by the way... Have you ever been in love?

[the_big_e_247]

dude i like the process thing u said.. i guess that would make more sense but i wasnt interested in making a metaphor that was a little off.. u r very right though.. but i think IM MORE RIGHT haha.. (cuz im an arrogant bastard).. but as far as the free will thing goes.. which like i told u, i pretty much wrote that part cuz i knew U would have something to say about it.. it seems everyone that commented on that is up in the air whether or not we really have free will.. which to me just helps justify that we kinda do and kinda dont.. u see i think our lives are lived quite like a video game is played... u have a number of stages and a shitload of weapons and options and crap.. and this door leads this way and this one leads that way but in the end ur still TRYING TO END UP IN THE SAME PLACE... so our lives r pre determined cuz we have a certain number of possibilities that can happen... and our lives r up to us cuz at any given point we can die before having beaten the game or before ending up with the one thast for u and ur fucked... but the options and weapons and doors are all the same.. they lead u in the same direction , towards the same goal ... and the time that u decide to open them and the weapon u decide to use is virtually unimportant cuz ur still in the game even after making a wrong turn or a wrong decision and as long as u dont die.. u still got a chance... God made it so that no matter how bad we fuck up.. we still have a chance at what he had in store for us we still ahev a chance with the one thast for us.. THATS FREE WILL...also this makes me think we all have many ways we can die.. but they r already set they are already determined.. so if u make it past the giant spiders u might die from the two headed monster and if u make it past him u got the evil octopus man.. and if u make it past him u duke it out with ur long lost real father... and if u make it past him u gotta beat out prostate cancer.. haha.. but the whole free will thing fucks u cuz its still up to u for the most important things... like the LOVE thing... our lives r like video games in that no matter what doors u opened.. or what path u took ... u still end up meeting the one that has ur name on them and thast when the decisions matter... cuz this is not a new weapon u picked up.. this is not a door into the next stage... this is like A PORTAL INTO A NEW VIDEO GAME called ETERNAL HAPPINESS.. but i mean.. i just kinda came up with this now so i really have nothing to back myself up with... but all i know is that our lives really R made out for us.. but only to the extent where free will can still take place... and only to the extnt where we can fuck up our lives if we so desire or if were stupid...
i shoulda just made this a different entry lol
whatever... peace out dude

[the_big_e_247]

dude i almost forgot... u asked me if ive ever been IN LOVE... and right about now is when i gotta be careful... cuz i dont want my own thoughts to bite me in the ass... but even then i dont really give a shit.. cuz LOVE is tricky and LOVE is contradictory and LOVE is THE BITE U IN THE ASS TYPE OF THING.. so ill have to answer by saying that YES, id like to think that i have been in love... but that leads me to ask myself whether it was real or not .. whether the LOVE ive witnessed was with the one that was for me... theres no check list though where u can be like "ok so it hit me like a brick-- CHECK... it was totally by surprise-- CHECK.. i hit the floor--CHECK..." theres no way for me to determine if the LOVE i was a part of was the one TRUE LOVE out there for me... so because im uncertain-- i can be certain about one thing... cuz its the only thing on the check list... i can be certain that the one thast for me... I WILL FIGHT FOR.. and i didnt with the last one or two or a billion it doesnt even matter... cuz in retrospect i dont think they were for me.. i dont think my name was on them or their name was on me... THERES NO MISTAKING IT WHEN THEY R FOR U... so ill know.. and ill get my sharpie out.. cuz in the little box next to the "did i fight for HER?" bullet, ill finally be able to do something ive never done...

CHECK!!!!

now im really done, dude..
PEACE OUT