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ok so heres another one dudes... and it didnt even take me so long in between!!! im giving myself props for that since most of u never show me any love anyway.. the least u can do is leave me a small message dammit! jk dudes its cool if u dont leave me a message, just so long as u guys stay tuned to the page that holds together all my thoughts-- notice i never write about what im doing, i think a journal shouldnt be about what u do in a day but instead about the complex/random thoughs that go through ur head during the course of a day in ur life. but yeah thast beside the point. oh another thing, this one may be a little contravercial in the examples i use... i do not judge people by what they do in their spare time or by the color of their skin or by anything. this may be my livejournal, which would theoreticaly allow me to say whatever the hell i want, but i do wish to stress that i mean no disrespect to anyone in anyway. now that thast out there, dig in dudes.
so heres a new thought guys... again ill start with the back story- the thing that got me to thinking of all this... so this is a few weeks ago, maybe even months and i had just found out who i was rooming with next year.. u see, i joined this global living community with a few of my friends and in this community u get to be on a floor with people from other countries and if ur amercian u room with an international dude and vice versa. so turns out my two friends got matched up with each other (ones from italy the other from maryland) and i got matched up with a dude from germany.. hes a real cool dude and stuff and i imagine that next year we will have a lot of fun. but anyways, he sends me an email telling me that perhaps the second semester of next year he will be moving out to study arabic abroad and that i would have the room to myself.. i was like awesome!!! but then i was like uh oh.. i kinda dont want to have my own place. everyones like "eddie! dude ur stupid! why wouldnt u want to have ur own room for just u man?! think of all the bitches u can have over!" but i dont know, guys. IM SCARED I WOULD LIKE IT. im scared i would like living on my own. everyone agreed that was a stupid reason but i disagree. u see, i dont wanna become one of those losers that cant live with other people.. i see like my RA and i think hes a lameass for choosing to live on his own and not having his own friends and stuff and for any of u who know arthur mortega, hes already a lameass but even moreso now that next year he will be an RA living on his own with no friends (nothing but love mortega). but yeah i think that a big reason why i dont do things is becasue of the fact that I FEAR LIKING IT. for example, drugs. now personally, i havent done drugs nor will i ever do drugs and its not because i think it would make me a bad person.. i mean i know a good amount of people that do drugs and well, i dont approve of that but aside from that flaw i think theyre pretty okay people... i dont do drugs because i know theyre bad but also because IM AFRAID THAT I WOULD LIKE IT and i would keep doing it. and thats fair. i think thats a good fear to have. my friend down here told me that her friend tried crack recently, and my response was "did he say he liked it" and she was like "YES! thast the worst part!" u see she knew he was not gonna stop anymore-- ONCE U SNIFF CRACK, U NEVER GO BACK. (this also goes with the original saying, insert 'get black' in there and remove 'sniff crack' and its the same thing. if u see a girl going into a room with a black guy u can kiss that girl goodbye. she wont want anything to do with u no more. why? simple--cuz she liked it... ps im not racist.. just putting that out there hehe) also, i completely diapprove of smoking.. and so do a lot of my friends. my roommate for example hates the smell of smoke. i like that. he says he would never smoke. but then he comes back one day and he shows me some cigars he bought.. and i was like whoa dude i thought u didnt like smoking. well turns out everyone agrees that smoking cigars is ok but smoking cigarettes isnt. THATS BULLSHIT! sorry people thast just dumb. i dont give a fuck if its the nicotene thast bad for u or the fact that theres 101 poisons in a cigarette or some shit like that, smoke of any kind still jacks up ur lungs. so i dont like smoking of any kind . and i refuse to go to a hooka bar too.. WHY? CUZ IM AFRAID ILL LIKE IT TOO MUCH. i know ill be hooked on smoking when i start trying smoke that tastes like strawberries or a mixture of grapes and watermelon, or some citrusy mango crap.. FUCK THAT.
i dont wanna become a smoker, i dont wanna become a druggy, i dont want to become a lameass with no friends in college that lives by himself,-- although, on the other hand, i do have a crush on this black girl and i am a strong promoter of interracial relationships.(JK) i mean i started drinking in college and now i cant get off that horse! (im not an alcoholic or anything but u know its not good for ur health and stuff) im scared i will like these things dudes and im scared that one thing will lead to another and ill be totally different from the person that i am now... like right now, i dont give a shit, when my first baby is born, either i wont hand out "its a boy/girl" cigars or ill be like "here dude, but if ur gonna smoke it get it the fuck out of my face" u see, i know its a bit closed minded of me to think this way, especially since i pride myself in being an open minded person about almost anything, but i think that it is our closed mindedness in certain cases that makes us who we r.. it is our limits that define us. my mom is one of the most closedminded people i know, most of our moms r, but i woulndt have it any other way. sure i would like it if we saw eye-to-eye on more levels but if that means compromising the limits that she set for me.. the very limits that make me the person that i am today, forget it.
perhaps i may be wrong to be afraid of liking things but like i said, think back and realize that we r a people of limits, of boundaries. KNOW WHERE URS ARE.. I SURE AS HELL KNOW WHERE MINE ARE. peace dudes.
so heres a new thought guys... again ill start with the back story- the thing that got me to thinking of all this... so this is a few weeks ago, maybe even months and i had just found out who i was rooming with next year.. u see, i joined this global living community with a few of my friends and in this community u get to be on a floor with people from other countries and if ur amercian u room with an international dude and vice versa. so turns out my two friends got matched up with each other (ones from italy the other from maryland) and i got matched up with a dude from germany.. hes a real cool dude and stuff and i imagine that next year we will have a lot of fun. but anyways, he sends me an email telling me that perhaps the second semester of next year he will be moving out to study arabic abroad and that i would have the room to myself.. i was like awesome!!! but then i was like uh oh.. i kinda dont want to have my own place. everyones like "eddie! dude ur stupid! why wouldnt u want to have ur own room for just u man?! think of all the bitches u can have over!" but i dont know, guys. IM SCARED I WOULD LIKE IT. im scared i would like living on my own. everyone agreed that was a stupid reason but i disagree. u see, i dont wanna become one of those losers that cant live with other people.. i see like my RA and i think hes a lameass for choosing to live on his own and not having his own friends and stuff and for any of u who know arthur mortega, hes already a lameass but even moreso now that next year he will be an RA living on his own with no friends (nothing but love mortega). but yeah i think that a big reason why i dont do things is becasue of the fact that I FEAR LIKING IT. for example, drugs. now personally, i havent done drugs nor will i ever do drugs and its not because i think it would make me a bad person.. i mean i know a good amount of people that do drugs and well, i dont approve of that but aside from that flaw i think theyre pretty okay people... i dont do drugs because i know theyre bad but also because IM AFRAID THAT I WOULD LIKE IT and i would keep doing it. and thats fair. i think thats a good fear to have. my friend down here told me that her friend tried crack recently, and my response was "did he say he liked it" and she was like "YES! thast the worst part!" u see she knew he was not gonna stop anymore-- ONCE U SNIFF CRACK, U NEVER GO BACK. (this also goes with the original saying, insert 'get black' in there and remove 'sniff crack' and its the same thing. if u see a girl going into a room with a black guy u can kiss that girl goodbye. she wont want anything to do with u no more. why? simple--cuz she liked it... ps im not racist.. just putting that out there hehe) also, i completely diapprove of smoking.. and so do a lot of my friends. my roommate for example hates the smell of smoke. i like that. he says he would never smoke. but then he comes back one day and he shows me some cigars he bought.. and i was like whoa dude i thought u didnt like smoking. well turns out everyone agrees that smoking cigars is ok but smoking cigarettes isnt. THATS BULLSHIT! sorry people thast just dumb. i dont give a fuck if its the nicotene thast bad for u or the fact that theres 101 poisons in a cigarette or some shit like that, smoke of any kind still jacks up ur lungs. so i dont like smoking of any kind . and i refuse to go to a hooka bar too.. WHY? CUZ IM AFRAID ILL LIKE IT TOO MUCH. i know ill be hooked on smoking when i start trying smoke that tastes like strawberries or a mixture of grapes and watermelon, or some citrusy mango crap.. FUCK THAT.
i dont wanna become a smoker, i dont wanna become a druggy, i dont want to become a lameass with no friends in college that lives by himself,-- although, on the other hand, i do have a crush on this black girl and i am a strong promoter of interracial relationships.(JK) i mean i started drinking in college and now i cant get off that horse! (im not an alcoholic or anything but u know its not good for ur health and stuff) im scared i will like these things dudes and im scared that one thing will lead to another and ill be totally different from the person that i am now... like right now, i dont give a shit, when my first baby is born, either i wont hand out "its a boy/girl" cigars or ill be like "here dude, but if ur gonna smoke it get it the fuck out of my face" u see, i know its a bit closed minded of me to think this way, especially since i pride myself in being an open minded person about almost anything, but i think that it is our closed mindedness in certain cases that makes us who we r.. it is our limits that define us. my mom is one of the most closedminded people i know, most of our moms r, but i woulndt have it any other way. sure i would like it if we saw eye-to-eye on more levels but if that means compromising the limits that she set for me.. the very limits that make me the person that i am today, forget it.
perhaps i may be wrong to be afraid of liking things but like i said, think back and realize that we r a people of limits, of boundaries. KNOW WHERE URS ARE.. I SURE AS HELL KNOW WHERE MINE ARE. peace dudes.