Merry Christmas
I haven't updated in a while.
I've been off work most of the time so nothing has really been happening.
This is the frist year I've done an organized secret santa. I did 2 actually. I with yum and one with the group. The lady at yum got me a nice Cardinal Hoody as my big gift, and some cool little gifts along the way. And JP got me the all-american rejects CD and a aero beanie. I really do like them a lot. The Rejects cd is actually better than I expected it to be.
My grades did finally come in.
Biology - B
Psychology - C
Philosophy - A
Enlgish - A
It did make me really happy to see the 2 A's. Next year I hope to do better; honestly I have to start doing something better if I want any chance of survival when I transfer to U of L.
YUM is really, well, a job. I strive to socialize with people now that I don't have FCO anymore. I was more of a loner in high school so it kind of shocks me to realize that I miss talking to people about anything and everything; I guess I can thank six flags for that. I miss six flags too. The drama, stress, respect, disrespect, freinds, bullshit, responsibility. Yea responsibility is one of those funny things. We seem to think we want less responsibility because it would make things easier have less weight on your shoulders, but when you feel like you have no responsibility other than to show up, you suddenly want a lot; or at least I do. Sometimes at work, it's like my brain shuts down because I have no more will to search through folders of reciepts looking for 1 in particular. It really is sad that I want to learn the job of every person around me but the buckets of folder never seem to stop coming :( Why is the most unimportant job the one with the largest amount of work?
I did get the most relaxing, important news of my life, at this time, the other day. HIV negitive. I didn't really think I had but it feels really good to know that I don't have it now. I thought it would really bust me out of this depression stage I seem to be sinking in too, but it's like I can't get excited about anything anymore; I don't understand. I just wish it would snow. Nothing seems to go wrong around me when it snows. And this is the time of year for it and It doesn't even remotely seem possible.
It's 4am now but, I am not tired. Guess I'm waitin for Santa? I have some big plans for 2008. I'm writting them down little by little. For instance, I want 2008 to be the year I really get in to fitness state of mind. I bought fitness for dummies. :) And trust me I'm not a reader, but I only have 2 more chapters to go and this book has at least motivated me to get started. Hopefully I can motivate myself to keep it going. Financially, the odds of me moving out this year are really slim, if I plan on paying bills by paycheck and not by money saved. And hoenstly, if i'm going to be losing money monthly, I really don't see the point. I would LOVE to move out, and try life indpendent for a while, to either prove I can or cannot do it. But I bet it doesn't happen. I would at least like to move up-stairs, much more room, and much more privacy. I seem to always claim I want more privacy in this house because I feel like I have none...Does this mean I have something to hide? or is privacy a fair need?
I've been off work most of the time so nothing has really been happening.
This is the frist year I've done an organized secret santa. I did 2 actually. I with yum and one with the group. The lady at yum got me a nice Cardinal Hoody as my big gift, and some cool little gifts along the way. And JP got me the all-american rejects CD and a aero beanie. I really do like them a lot. The Rejects cd is actually better than I expected it to be.
My grades did finally come in.
Biology - B
Psychology - C
Philosophy - A
Enlgish - A
It did make me really happy to see the 2 A's. Next year I hope to do better; honestly I have to start doing something better if I want any chance of survival when I transfer to U of L.
YUM is really, well, a job. I strive to socialize with people now that I don't have FCO anymore. I was more of a loner in high school so it kind of shocks me to realize that I miss talking to people about anything and everything; I guess I can thank six flags for that. I miss six flags too. The drama, stress, respect, disrespect, freinds, bullshit, responsibility. Yea responsibility is one of those funny things. We seem to think we want less responsibility because it would make things easier have less weight on your shoulders, but when you feel like you have no responsibility other than to show up, you suddenly want a lot; or at least I do. Sometimes at work, it's like my brain shuts down because I have no more will to search through folders of reciepts looking for 1 in particular. It really is sad that I want to learn the job of every person around me but the buckets of folder never seem to stop coming :( Why is the most unimportant job the one with the largest amount of work?
I did get the most relaxing, important news of my life, at this time, the other day. HIV negitive. I didn't really think I had but it feels really good to know that I don't have it now. I thought it would really bust me out of this depression stage I seem to be sinking in too, but it's like I can't get excited about anything anymore; I don't understand. I just wish it would snow. Nothing seems to go wrong around me when it snows. And this is the time of year for it and It doesn't even remotely seem possible.
It's 4am now but, I am not tired. Guess I'm waitin for Santa? I have some big plans for 2008. I'm writting them down little by little. For instance, I want 2008 to be the year I really get in to fitness state of mind. I bought fitness for dummies. :) And trust me I'm not a reader, but I only have 2 more chapters to go and this book has at least motivated me to get started. Hopefully I can motivate myself to keep it going. Financially, the odds of me moving out this year are really slim, if I plan on paying bills by paycheck and not by money saved. And hoenstly, if i'm going to be losing money monthly, I really don't see the point. I would LOVE to move out, and try life indpendent for a while, to either prove I can or cannot do it. But I bet it doesn't happen. I would at least like to move up-stairs, much more room, and much more privacy. I seem to always claim I want more privacy in this house because I feel like I have none...Does this mean I have something to hide? or is privacy a fair need?