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WOW - I haven't updated this thing in forever.
Well, I've done quite a lot. I'm ahead in work, hopefully that'll be repaid in a raise or promotion. I also have run into a bunch of people I haven't seen in ages. Elijah came for dinner, Dom slept over and we got pampered at this chic new spa/bar called L'Oxygene. It's the top of the line. I also had a few beers with Viggo before he ran off to Toronto for filming.
Also, I got a job offer. I am the runnerup. If this other person declines the job offer, I will then be given the job. I'll be on the staff for a new television series. It'll pay the bills. I'm excited, but also highly doubtful. I really don't think I'm going to get it.
Well, I hope everyone is doing well... Dom - you should give me a call sometime.
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Nuts. that's what I am. I'm going crazy. I keep forgetting why I ran from England. I mean, Steve used to be sweet and nice, and I wouldn't be so poor because we used to live together... and he cuddles... and he's strong. I make him do all the chores I don't want to do... he was spontaneous, bringing me home flowers, and candy, and random trips to waterfalls and walks in the woods... He just... Well, steve was an alcoholic. Steve also was fired from work - he was so smart, i couldn't understand why, then - so he used to beat me up. I should change my career into stage makeup, because I was a master at covering the bruises and cuts. It was too much. I don't know what I did wrong, but i messed up somehow, and they became more frequent... I found out later that he was fired from work because he never went. He pretended to go and would go see his other girlfriend. I was crushed, but I can't help it, I love him. We have so much together. We were together for so long. He helped me through my earlier boyfriends. I don't know why but its a sick cycle. I ditch one abusive relationship for another.
Now that work is getting more and more competitive, and that trip with Dom on my credit card... and rent, and me blowing my last paycheck on furniture.... I don't know what to do... I can't eat, because I'm only buying alcohol. I can't afford rent, or the heat, or the water... I'm afraid that my electricity might get shut off, and all i want is Steve to hold me and tell me its alright, like he used too... I've traded one tough life for another.
what am I supposed to do?
Well, I've done quite a lot. I'm ahead in work, hopefully that'll be repaid in a raise or promotion. I also have run into a bunch of people I haven't seen in ages. Elijah came for dinner, Dom slept over and we got pampered at this chic new spa/bar called L'Oxygene. It's the top of the line. I also had a few beers with Viggo before he ran off to Toronto for filming.
Also, I got a job offer. I am the runnerup. If this other person declines the job offer, I will then be given the job. I'll be on the staff for a new television series. It'll pay the bills. I'm excited, but also highly doubtful. I really don't think I'm going to get it.
Well, I hope everyone is doing well... Dom - you should give me a call sometime.
*******private***********
Nuts. that's what I am. I'm going crazy. I keep forgetting why I ran from England. I mean, Steve used to be sweet and nice, and I wouldn't be so poor because we used to live together... and he cuddles... and he's strong. I make him do all the chores I don't want to do... he was spontaneous, bringing me home flowers, and candy, and random trips to waterfalls and walks in the woods... He just... Well, steve was an alcoholic. Steve also was fired from work - he was so smart, i couldn't understand why, then - so he used to beat me up. I should change my career into stage makeup, because I was a master at covering the bruises and cuts. It was too much. I don't know what I did wrong, but i messed up somehow, and they became more frequent... I found out later that he was fired from work because he never went. He pretended to go and would go see his other girlfriend. I was crushed, but I can't help it, I love him. We have so much together. We were together for so long. He helped me through my earlier boyfriends. I don't know why but its a sick cycle. I ditch one abusive relationship for another.
Now that work is getting more and more competitive, and that trip with Dom on my credit card... and rent, and me blowing my last paycheck on furniture.... I don't know what to do... I can't eat, because I'm only buying alcohol. I can't afford rent, or the heat, or the water... I'm afraid that my electricity might get shut off, and all i want is Steve to hold me and tell me its alright, like he used too... I've traded one tough life for another.
what am I supposed to do?