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*twirls around bedroom and turns on voice recorder*
OK - last time I left off, I was discussing the sequel to my book. Ann told me that it was going to be big, and she expects a huge success which her publishing company needed. So to plan a sequel isn't too forward?
*I pause. tape recorders don't respond, so i continue*
OK, so the heroine in the first story wins, saves the day, solves the riddle, ends her dependence... and is on her own. Independent. BUT in the sequel lets have her grow with another character... who is sweet...
*I walk over to my bed and lie down, hugging a Spongebob squarepants pillow* And is understanding. Who enjoys good wine and theatre, but also adores Manchester United... *I sigh*
I'm talking about Matt again. I cannot fall into the rut of autobiographical novels... I will not write a story that correlates with Matt - but he'd be perfect for the main character. He wouldn't try to take over the heroine's part. He wouldn't try to hurt her or overpower her, or push her down.
*I sit up and rub my face*
He wouldn't try to control her. He'd let me be me and be happy about it. He'd be happy for me. Just like I'm happy that he's out of his bad relationship, and I'm out of mine and...
*I pause and realize what I'm doing. I'm talking about Matt.* }
It's about him. It always has been. I'm terrified to let him stay here, and I'm terrified to see him go. I don't want to see him leave... I think we can grow together...
I think I'll finish plotting the sequel tomorrow. I'm so confused right now.
We did have dinner the other night though, and i put everything from the past aside, and I was... happy. I haven't felt that in a very long time. He doesn't out do me, and nor do I outdo him. It was the best dinner I have ever had.
*I turn off the voice recorder, and pull the comforter over me, while shutting off the lights. I yawn*
I'm in trouble...
*I'm falling for him...*
OK - last time I left off, I was discussing the sequel to my book. Ann told me that it was going to be big, and she expects a huge success which her publishing company needed. So to plan a sequel isn't too forward?
*I pause. tape recorders don't respond, so i continue*
OK, so the heroine in the first story wins, saves the day, solves the riddle, ends her dependence... and is on her own. Independent. BUT in the sequel lets have her grow with another character... who is sweet...
*I walk over to my bed and lie down, hugging a Spongebob squarepants pillow* And is understanding. Who enjoys good wine and theatre, but also adores Manchester United... *I sigh*
I'm talking about Matt again. I cannot fall into the rut of autobiographical novels... I will not write a story that correlates with Matt - but he'd be perfect for the main character. He wouldn't try to take over the heroine's part. He wouldn't try to hurt her or overpower her, or push her down.
*I sit up and rub my face*
He wouldn't try to control her. He'd let me be me and be happy about it. He'd be happy for me. Just like I'm happy that he's out of his bad relationship, and I'm out of mine and...
*I pause and realize what I'm doing. I'm talking about Matt.* }
It's about him. It always has been. I'm terrified to let him stay here, and I'm terrified to see him go. I don't want to see him leave... I think we can grow together...
I think I'll finish plotting the sequel tomorrow. I'm so confused right now.
We did have dinner the other night though, and i put everything from the past aside, and I was... happy. I haven't felt that in a very long time. He doesn't out do me, and nor do I outdo him. It was the best dinner I have ever had.
*I turn off the voice recorder, and pull the comforter over me, while shutting off the lights. I yawn*
I'm in trouble...
*I'm falling for him...*