reality < insanity
Well im up late yet again but tomarrow i dont have to work so i think ill be alright. I do wanna wake up early because laura is getting sugery on her wrist because she has some bump thing that keeps coming back called a sist. But tomrrow there going to take care of that hopefully. It doesnt sound like its a serious prosedure but i still wanna make sure everything is going to be alright. Also today me and jesse practiced for the first time. He is pretty good at the guitar and can easly put things together with whatever is being played. he got all the songs down i asked him to we both just needed to warm up and we got it going. i think were going to try to either get at it tomarrow or tuesday after i get some fucking community service out the way. But on the other hand things have been feeling fake. As if everything im doing is just like a lie. i feel almost as if im being used. Led onto fake feeling and emotions. I feel im being lied to so whomever can gain the best of it. Its like im walking down a road but everytime i take a step i take 2 back. Im not really sure where this is eventually going to lead to but i think ultimtly my death. Im not saying im going to kill myself or anything. But probly some series of events are going to happen to where some big ass animal of some sort is going to eat but im not going to in his stomic. But die in his ass because i got choked on the way out. I dunno. I just feel like i need some truth and direction to go in. This lady at work asked me about school. i told her id go back just not for a lil. and there always trying to rush u back like if its easy or something. Ill just wait till i got enough cash to get the ball rolling. then hopefully ill see where im going to go. But so far im not sure whats going to happen. Im still figuring out whos go my back and whos looking to be the frist to put a knife in it. Ill eventually find the truth about whatever im looking for. Till then ill holla at u niggs latah