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I always thought I'd lose my virginity to another virgin. It's just how I always envisioned it. But more and more I'm realizing how that might be unrealistic. And I don't know how I feel about that.
At the moment I have a relatively firm No Drinking No Smoking No Sex policy. But its not meant to be permament, it's meant as more of a protest to what I see as generally stupid behavior than anything else. I have no problem with cracking open a brew with my boys while we sit on Seans porch and watch the sunset. ( okay maybe not the porch... that place has sort of been defiled) But I think it's stupid how people feel like they can't have fun unless they are wasted. I have so much fun without altering my mind, I don't feel a need to do that in order to party.
Same thing with smoking. I have no problem with doing it responsibly, but I don't think that near dependnce is fun or worthwhile.
This is not to say that I have a problem with people who do it. I really don't care at all. I DD for my friends whenever they need it, and am always there to hold your hand, or, well, your hair above your head. It's just not something I have a desire to do.
The sex is more simple. I am not in love. When I am I'll reexamine my stance. But I don't think I need to be hooking up. It doesn't mean anything to me, and shouldn't
But next time I am in love... what if she isn't a virgin? as more and more of my friends lose their virginity, I'm realizing this will probably be the case. And I guess I'm okay with that. I just don't know how I feel about giving up such a tender part of myself to someone who has already given that part of themselves to someone else.
thank god I'm a loser and dont have a girlfriend and therefore dont have to decide
At the moment I have a relatively firm No Drinking No Smoking No Sex policy. But its not meant to be permament, it's meant as more of a protest to what I see as generally stupid behavior than anything else. I have no problem with cracking open a brew with my boys while we sit on Seans porch and watch the sunset. ( okay maybe not the porch... that place has sort of been defiled) But I think it's stupid how people feel like they can't have fun unless they are wasted. I have so much fun without altering my mind, I don't feel a need to do that in order to party.
Same thing with smoking. I have no problem with doing it responsibly, but I don't think that near dependnce is fun or worthwhile.
This is not to say that I have a problem with people who do it. I really don't care at all. I DD for my friends whenever they need it, and am always there to hold your hand, or, well, your hair above your head. It's just not something I have a desire to do.
The sex is more simple. I am not in love. When I am I'll reexamine my stance. But I don't think I need to be hooking up. It doesn't mean anything to me, and shouldn't
But next time I am in love... what if she isn't a virgin? as more and more of my friends lose their virginity, I'm realizing this will probably be the case. And I guess I'm okay with that. I just don't know how I feel about giving up such a tender part of myself to someone who has already given that part of themselves to someone else.
thank god I'm a loser and dont have a girlfriend and therefore dont have to decide