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today, since im not at school, thank heavens, i'll do some [long awaited] laundry, clean my [disoriented] bedroom, do my [super late] homework, and listen to some [mellow-dank] tunes by neil young, and it will feel amazing because, in my opinion, anything is better than wasting a 7:17am to 6:00pm day attending the institution lovingly referred to as o.c.h.s.a., which consists of 95 percent crazies, and only 5 percent awesomes, which do happen to be the awesomest awesomes around, making the other 95 percent seem pretty bearable at times, the downfall being that its only 13 percent of the 9 hour day that i get to spend with them, the other 87 percent stuck in classrooms, though not pointless for everyone, pointless for me considering only 20 percent of the 87 percent day of classes that i spend 'learning' are actually classes that are prerequisite to graduate, causing a detrimental case of senioritus, which makes it more and more difficult to sit through the pointless 80 percent of my classes, 87 percent of the school day, though only having about 45 percent of the school year left, as i will have spent 75 percent of my highschool year at this school by the time this last 45 percent is completed, thus leaving me the next 75 percent of my life left to live, and you know whats funny, the fact that the force our lives have been utterly centered around for the past 12 years, highschool diploma, is going to end in merely four months and it can be done and overwith and never thought about again if you so please, so all that you've known, [school], and all that you've lived for, your main concern [well, your parents', the state of californias, etc], will finally be... finalized, and now your left to do whatever, wherever, with whomever you choose, which is earthshaking because now it's basically up to you to decide what your life will evolve around and what your main concern will be, and what really is the 'main concern', is it to get a 'good' education, move onto a 'successful' career so you can find 'happiness' in working that same 'successful' job for eternity so you can provide for what you 'need' and 'want' in a 'nice' home, because, of course, you want to be a 'respectable' citizen in this 'beautiful' country, the land of 'opportunity', opportunity to get a 'good' education and a 'good' job, but is that really even legit, i mean, who says that its good and successful to climb up the latter of this country where we understand money to be substantial, and that its completely sensible the way we play with small pieces of paper [currency] and base our life around it, and in order to survive you must be the fittest, and unless youve climbed up the latter high enough to surpass your average joe, you can't actually 'help' your neighbor, and the 'help' your lending is really a boost further up this latter, so apparently its great, climbing the latter, but its just an effing latter, i'd rather stay on the ground where i know what im doing, where i can be content and not be shoved along, taking a step up now and then, and maybe two steps back depending on the ever changing worth of our dollar and the stock market and each little detail of the 'fair' economy our country has built, so what i guess im trying to say, is i wish i knew my place in this society.
