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being at work really apms up the self-pity for me. One of the old men at work asked me today, "when are you and your boyfriend getting married?"
of course, again.."I don't have a boyfriend of any kind. at all."
and then he flipped out. like he was serious! Saying things like "this town must be sliding for letting you get away." and "they should be hangin from your neck."
i get it. thank you for reminding me that i have yet to get what i deserve, and that i'm totally lacking the adoration from a man i can't resist. i have no boyfriend. i have yet to go on a sucessful date. and by that i mean one where some kind of posative romantic relationship evolved. i'm alone when often times i would love to be sharing certain times and events with a guy. not just any guy of course, but blah blah blah.
new ideas have come up. i know i recently said something about not wanting a serious relationship. it's changed. because i want what i deserve. someone to treat me well and love me. i derserve that.
i want to feel passionate again.
of course, again.."I don't have a boyfriend of any kind. at all."
and then he flipped out. like he was serious! Saying things like "this town must be sliding for letting you get away." and "they should be hangin from your neck."
i get it. thank you for reminding me that i have yet to get what i deserve, and that i'm totally lacking the adoration from a man i can't resist. i have no boyfriend. i have yet to go on a sucessful date. and by that i mean one where some kind of posative romantic relationship evolved. i'm alone when often times i would love to be sharing certain times and events with a guy. not just any guy of course, but blah blah blah.
new ideas have come up. i know i recently said something about not wanting a serious relationship. it's changed. because i want what i deserve. someone to treat me well and love me. i derserve that.
i want to feel passionate again.