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where do i even start? i guess i'll get the crappy part out of the way first. i'm just really pissed at my parents latley for being so negative towards me. they act like i'm fucking up everyones schedule. They don't give a shit that i've been working my ass off at my job. I've been making a lot of sacrifices. and they don't even care. they're not even proud of me for being to responsibly and doing such a stand up job. I was voted team member of the month for september, and before that i got some award from corporate for all my hard work as make-up coordinator. But they don't care. they're actually saying things to me like "you need to stand by your responsabilities and your obligations." We've always had this problem... the are so vauge and i am a precise kind of person. i need specifics. And when they ask me their questions and imply something i have no clue about, i answer the question by what i was asked. so then if they had just asked what they really wanted to know i would have answered different, they get mad because i've gone and messed up their plans.
ugh and my mom is so weird at approaching things now. And the way she's doing it is more like trying to make me stay rather than helping it feel easier to go. She knows i'm going to have a hard time abandoning her, because that is what i feel like i'm doing. and our dog is dying and my grandpa just went in and out of the hospital again. My grandparents are coming to visit next month and i want to move out at the end of the month. but then it's going to go from a house with people to a house with no one, just her and tom. and i think that would be a scary transition for her.
Dusty's condition is exsauhsting as well. she's like anorexic and bulemic. which has to be horrible because what the hell is she throwing up if nothing is in her? and she's never been a whiner but all she does is sleep, and i can feel her bones. anyway yeah she's going to be put to sleep soon. ......
On a much better note Liz's halloween party was last night and it was absolutely one of the funnest party night of the year. my birthday party is still number one for me. and the year is not over yet! but yes, deffinately a kick ass party. I'll edit this and throw some pictures in later. i'll stop for now because i have a class at corporate at 10am (meaning i gotta leave at like 8 or 8:30). the salon is getting a new computer system so we have to go in a get trained for it. It's going to have a picture pop up of whoever's name you're looking at (people who work in the salon) and i wanted to make this tiger-jumping-out-at-you-all-scary-like type face so it would look like i was about to attack you from the computer screen... ah classic. but i didn't. i did a stupid face with a peace sign instead. siiiighhh.
ugh and my mom is so weird at approaching things now. And the way she's doing it is more like trying to make me stay rather than helping it feel easier to go. She knows i'm going to have a hard time abandoning her, because that is what i feel like i'm doing. and our dog is dying and my grandpa just went in and out of the hospital again. My grandparents are coming to visit next month and i want to move out at the end of the month. but then it's going to go from a house with people to a house with no one, just her and tom. and i think that would be a scary transition for her.
Dusty's condition is exsauhsting as well. she's like anorexic and bulemic. which has to be horrible because what the hell is she throwing up if nothing is in her? and she's never been a whiner but all she does is sleep, and i can feel her bones. anyway yeah she's going to be put to sleep soon. ......
On a much better note Liz's halloween party was last night and it was absolutely one of the funnest party night of the year. my birthday party is still number one for me. and the year is not over yet! but yes, deffinately a kick ass party. I'll edit this and throw some pictures in later. i'll stop for now because i have a class at corporate at 10am (meaning i gotta leave at like 8 or 8:30). the salon is getting a new computer system so we have to go in a get trained for it. It's going to have a picture pop up of whoever's name you're looking at (people who work in the salon) and i wanted to make this tiger-jumping-out-at-you-all-scary-like type face so it would look like i was about to attack you from the computer screen... ah classic. but i didn't. i did a stupid face with a peace sign instead. siiiighhh.