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We did a gig tonight, it went really well, I think in the end I managed to accidently out-class and upstage everyone playing there tonight, I got the crowd cheering and moving, even jumped down to dance with the group of girls at the front of the stage while we were doing Monster Mash.
When I wasn't on stage I hid away, I managed to avoid all but one posed photo and a few autographs, I drank next-to nothing and smoked less than I usually would.
I don't think I can keep going along with this band, it's hard to get behind something you're not even a fan of yourself, they're all talented, but it feels too much like this is the wrong band for me.
Hell, to be totally egotistical and selfish about it, it feels like they're holding me back and trying to change me, I'm not big on metal and rock music, nor am I filled with enough anger anymore to really fit half of what I'm singing.
And really, what I'm doing in this band isn't even real singing, I get confined to backing vocals most of the time, lots of shouting and deep vocals, and my dad, who sings lead vocals, bless him, isn't the most, uhm, skilled vocalist.
He's loud, yeah, that's a bonus, but that's because he's shouting, and he always tries to sustain a note for as long as possible, which is totally useless unless it's part of the song, which nine times out of ten, it's not, he just wanted to try to show off and ended up making the rest of the band look twatish waiting for him to stop singing so we can move to the next part.
Anyway, basically, what I'm saying, is that things are going really well for the band, and I myself am getting lots of recognition. And I'm planning on leaving the band.
When I wasn't on stage I hid away, I managed to avoid all but one posed photo and a few autographs, I drank next-to nothing and smoked less than I usually would.
I don't think I can keep going along with this band, it's hard to get behind something you're not even a fan of yourself, they're all talented, but it feels too much like this is the wrong band for me.
Hell, to be totally egotistical and selfish about it, it feels like they're holding me back and trying to change me, I'm not big on metal and rock music, nor am I filled with enough anger anymore to really fit half of what I'm singing.
And really, what I'm doing in this band isn't even real singing, I get confined to backing vocals most of the time, lots of shouting and deep vocals, and my dad, who sings lead vocals, bless him, isn't the most, uhm, skilled vocalist.
He's loud, yeah, that's a bonus, but that's because he's shouting, and he always tries to sustain a note for as long as possible, which is totally useless unless it's part of the song, which nine times out of ten, it's not, he just wanted to try to show off and ended up making the rest of the band look twatish waiting for him to stop singing so we can move to the next part.
Anyway, basically, what I'm saying, is that things are going really well for the band, and I myself am getting lots of recognition. And I'm planning on leaving the band.