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[the_amelia]

i haven't been inspired to write in this thing lately. but i feel compelled to- so here it is. i've been ok. sometimes very ok, sometimes kind of ok, but generally staying within the realm of ok. could be better, could be worse. i've started cutting my hair again, which isn't a good sign. i have bangs now. i'd post a picture, but the idea of meg making fun of me for being one of those pouty livejournalers is holding me back. =) i thought they looked shitty last night, but then i got asked out on a date today. what is it about cowboy boots that drives the very straight man wild? i always thought they gave me this kind of pseudo lesbian aesthetic that i enjoyed, but maybe not. i feel like i'm having a bit of a sexual identity crisis, becoming more and more interested in girls, girls on the street, girls on the subway, girls at work, yet remaining insufferably straight for all intents and purposes.

one good thing:
glsen has hired me full time! i'm still not a for real employee, but they are thinking of creating a new position in january, so we'll see. at least i'm not working for free anymore. that was getting old. i went to engender health this afternoon to tell my supervisor where i had left off on my projects. i felt so bad. i offered three times to keep working on them in my spare time, but she turned me down. i'm grateful, but riddled with guilt. actually, no i'm not- fuck them and their shitty politics.

oy, and i don't have a halloween costume yet. i was thinking of being silly putty, but now i don't think that's possible.