finally, good thoughts

[the_ali]

Finally things feel they are coming into place. i have found a group of people who will be here this summer, a group of people, dare I say, I can actually call *friends.* It feels so nice, I have been lonely here for along tie... and that is WITH Aaron being here... I would be lieing if I said I wasn't petrified of being all alone in this grumpy city with all of the people I love dearly across the world. But, over the past two terms I have really had the oppurtunity to have opened my eyes, which in return has allowed me to see who my true friends are, here as well as over there. (Bay area) It is such a relief to identify these people and say my silent good bye to those who are not real friends... this enabling me to put forth effort to the people who truely care abou tme. Why is it so easy to waste time and energy on people who will suck you dry, but so hard to give what is deserved to the people who love you? I am really working on reversing this trend, I hope those of you true friends can see me trying... I love and appreciate you all. (You know who you are.)
SO... Yes, it will be hard being here without my love... but at least I can enjoy one on one time with my new found london based friends. (I can not wait for all of you to meet these fantastic people, they can not wait to meet all of you!!!) Besides i will be very busy with my internship, stress I am sure aaron will be happy to distant from. :)haha) Oh and I just got a freelance pattern job which is awesome. The chick was really impressed with patterns... so she is going to pay me the rate professionals get paid. FANTASTIC, so when i get back I can take you all out!!! I would love for my different groups of friends to meet and hang out with one another. you know? (Yes Brandon, I will take you to multiple, I owe you big time.. stranger.)
I love you all and miss you sooooooo much!ALi