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[the_alexio]

Where do i begin? How about school? It sucks, i hate it, I can't continue to exceed myself to keep up, im stuck struggling, just making by. I'm stupid? But im not? My teachers tell me i can do it, than i can achieve great things, and my guidance counselor is telling me that my sats aren't there, and then my parents tell me im stupid, and that my grades suck. I've failed a bunch of tests. I'm finding myself just wanting to give up... Work is a rollercoaster, i'm getting shitty hours. I want a social life, but my g/f doesn't trust me, and my friends are all busy all the time, so theres nothing to do. I'd be nice we were all closer. It's senior year, and idk... i just wanted to go out tonight, let out my agravation.

*edit not everything was bad...

Psycho LexXx: you'd love this
Psycho LexXx: last weekend before all this
Psycho LexXx: we went to the field hockey game together
Laur6225: cool
Psycho LexXx: and then i took her up to pequanak
Psycho LexXx: to a lake
Psycho LexXx: in the mountains
Laur6225: oohh cuteness
Psycho LexXx: on the most beautiful fall day
Psycho LexXx: it was just me nd her alone
Psycho LexXx: at the lake
Laur6225: o0HH
Psycho LexXx: nd she like went crazy because it was like a movie
Laur6225: yeahh i <3 when i get movie moments
Psycho LexXx: lol
Laur6225: seriously
Laur6225: lol
Laur6225: did u guys kiss at the lake.. cuz that would be just WAYYY to perfect
Psycho LexXx: yea
Laur6225: AwWw
Psycho LexXx: we got out of the car
Psycho LexXx: and she freaked out
Psycho LexXx: all she could say was are you serious?
Psycho LexXx: over and over
Psycho LexXx: i showed her the lake
Psycho LexXx: and she was omg omg omg
Psycho LexXx: and then we stood against my car and stared at each other
Psycho LexXx: and then the movie moment kiss