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originally i was gonna reply to teeny and tell her that she's lucky to still be talking to sara. I really fucking miss marisa. I could just complain to her right now, about everything. she'd do or say something funny, and it'd all be over. i'd be fine. i'd be ok. god i really miss her. there's no one in the world that will ever take her place. i kinda want to just see her one more time, but its over, she's gone. I really hate school. why even try to be a good student? whats wrong with mediocre? whats the problem with having a normal life. what the fuck am i striving to achieve? every1 who's smarter than me rubs it in my face. i don't consider myself too highly, and its not self pity. why do honor students try so hard? so we can fucking be miserable? look at the happy people they go and and do crazy shit by our standards. i fucking hate this yr already. fuck life. i suck at it.