Feb 16, 2008 13:26
I don't think anyone reads mine anymore.
And for some reason, that comforts me.
I have recently been let down by the one person that I thought cared most about me. I don't really know how to describe the feeling that it left me with. All I know is that I could feel my heart beating throughout my entire body. and it physically left me with a feeling that my ribcage was completely hollow.
But right now, I can't concentrate, and I figured that maybe writing about it would help me sort out what I'm feeling.
I have this feeling, like I'm going around in circles with my life. I have this feeling that I've dealt with more stress than a 17 year old should have to face. I have this feeling of disappointment in myself, and that all of my efforts for everything that I've ever worked for have been in vain. And I have this feeling of disappointment in myself for being naive.
I'm not in a good place right now.
And no, this isn't just about one little lie.
And no, I don't want to talk about it.
What I want, is to be left alone...
Because I know that I am someone that I can count on.