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a few days have gone by since I have reclaimed my slutness, or in actuality decided that I don't have to prove anything to anybody but little ol me. if you're not in my daily life back the fuck off and don't judge me or say to me that I am swiming in drama producing drama and I need to watch out for things or they will creep up on me. because I know this, I know if I leave things un-attended shit will fly and I will feel my whole system of self be blown off course. I know this.
being single again has proved that I do need to learn the art of dating. but really I just want to make out with whomever I find beauty in. and if that carries into something, I know not to jump in to far, to deep, to quick.
I find being single always leaves me with my art and the countless other things that I neglect while being with some one. because usually I spend my energy art and music and everything I find interesting and fill someone up...this needs to be balanced, and i've known this, I just need to start doing it. mind shape up list. and really I jsut don't need to be with someone that isn't going to give back what I give and I don't need to be with someone who isn't going to give me waht I want...or it's not even really that, I just want to meet some one that i'm blown away by, that I don't have to attend to have to build...I want to be struck down by inmense creativity, self worth and blunt honesty, humor, and well physical atrubutes wouldn't be that bad either.
we'll see how everything goes, i'm not searching this time, I think maybe some thing will just apear and it will be the most beautiful thing of all.
things just seem to happen, as they will, good or bad, and I will wait...but i'm going to have some fun in the meantime
being single again has proved that I do need to learn the art of dating. but really I just want to make out with whomever I find beauty in. and if that carries into something, I know not to jump in to far, to deep, to quick.
I find being single always leaves me with my art and the countless other things that I neglect while being with some one. because usually I spend my energy art and music and everything I find interesting and fill someone up...this needs to be balanced, and i've known this, I just need to start doing it. mind shape up list. and really I jsut don't need to be with someone that isn't going to give back what I give and I don't need to be with someone who isn't going to give me waht I want...or it's not even really that, I just want to meet some one that i'm blown away by, that I don't have to attend to have to build...I want to be struck down by inmense creativity, self worth and blunt honesty, humor, and well physical atrubutes wouldn't be that bad either.
we'll see how everything goes, i'm not searching this time, I think maybe some thing will just apear and it will be the most beautiful thing of all.
things just seem to happen, as they will, good or bad, and I will wait...but i'm going to have some fun in the meantime