WAKE UP GOD DAMNIT WAKE UP!!

[the__jester]

Wow, everytime I look at the clock only seconds have passed why does this seem to take so long for me to move on? Why exactly did I let myself get this far into something that now I can't handle it? It makes no sense.. this is what I wanted and now that I have it I can't even cherish it because I can't really have it.. This is so fucked.. I hate

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[sleepinbutawake]

Ok, I read all of your entries and yet I have no idea who you keep talking about!.....

Wow, everytime I look at the clock only seconds have passed why does this seem to take so long for me to move on? Why exactly did I let myself get this far into something that now I can't handle it? It makes no sense.. this is what I wanted and now that I have it I can't even cherish it because I can't really have it.. This is so fucked.. I hate this so much.. and really it's killing me inside.. I am making pictures on my little picture making device, and yet they all remind me of the one thing that if I think of I want to burst into tears... it's driving me nuts.. Why can't I just go crazy and let myself go? I mean does it make that much difference anymore.. who really cares anyway.. <~~~Who is this person you keep talkig about?! hmmm?

[the__jester]

Rachel, that's who it is about.. and it's a really long story.. a really long depressing story..

[gloomy_sundayx]

i'm sorry... i wish you were happy.
♥
and uh.. themselves.* sorry... i felt it needed to be done.

[the__jester]

Your right, lol.. I didn't realize what I had said XD.. Thanks for your concern!

Love ya
Paul

[sleepinbutawake]

O0o0okay gotcha :(

[eagereyes___]

really really depressing.