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i try so hard. i try to do things for people in hopes ro make them feel special and loved. i try so hard. ive baught,cooked,done things for so many people and never expected anything in return. it sucks when you invite a friend to go do something but doesnt have time and you say "well its ok call me and we can hang out or something" they never call but have time to hang out with everyone else. it sucks when you offer to help but get shot down for some various reason. it sucks the most when you sit up for 2 hours trying to figure out how to make spaghettie sauce and noodles just so your boyfriend wont go hungry at work and save him all the food because you know hes a bottomless pit.....you expect him to sit and eat with you and spend time with you....but instead comes 10 minutes before he has to work....because he fell asleep on the couch. i even made him a little to-go box of my spaghetti that will surely give someone e coli. do i expect too much? am i really that bad? am i annoying? i try not to be. i try to be likeable and make the best of things when im feeling like shit on the inside. i try to make everyone happy and do things for everyone. am i trying to hard? if so..please someone tell me. what am i doing wrong. i really want to know why people treat me like shit after i try so hard. am i not trying as hard as i think? let me know..indulge me..i need a change.