Because I haven't done a REAL one in a while....
I haven't really done one of these since January! Damn, homies! Lots and lots has happened, but any potential readers already know it all, I think. I am home for Easter now, and thrilled about it.
It had been too long. I got to see Bethany too! Since the summer we have seen each other so little, what with me leaving the country, and then we've both been so busy this semester. She can't visit me at Stonehill. That makes me sad. But, we did get to catch up and talk about EVERYTHING -- including school, boys, the future, jobs, marriage, babies, and so much more. I feel better after talking to Bethany. Don't get me wrong, she's way more on the ball about her future, but she somehow reminded me how much... time... or something we actually have. Or something. In any case, she helped.
Anyway, I think I'm ready to graduate. Don't get me wrong, I love Stonehill. I will miss Stonehill and all the people I have met there. But I think I will get over missing the place itself, and the people, well, distance isn't such a big deterrence for friends.
I am ready to move on into a more adult way of living. I know this sounds crazy, but I am ready to stop getting drunk, stop hooking up, stop talking about people, stop being talked about, stop being awkward about things that do not matter or are not true, stop caring what anyone thinks of me (though I don't think that last one will ever stop). I am tired of it, really tired. And of trying to impress. I think no matter how laid back you are, and I am pretty laid back, there is always a push to impress. Drives me nuts. Who's looking? I dunno. I dunno.
But, I am pumped for these last few weeks. 8th grade, writing my thesis, doing something intellectual. And of course Spring Weekend and time with my lovahs and friends, and Cape Week and Graduation. Whoa. Let's make it a great last few weeks.
It had been too long. I got to see Bethany too! Since the summer we have seen each other so little, what with me leaving the country, and then we've both been so busy this semester. She can't visit me at Stonehill. That makes me sad. But, we did get to catch up and talk about EVERYTHING -- including school, boys, the future, jobs, marriage, babies, and so much more. I feel better after talking to Bethany. Don't get me wrong, she's way more on the ball about her future, but she somehow reminded me how much... time... or something we actually have. Or something. In any case, she helped.
Anyway, I think I'm ready to graduate. Don't get me wrong, I love Stonehill. I will miss Stonehill and all the people I have met there. But I think I will get over missing the place itself, and the people, well, distance isn't such a big deterrence for friends.
I am ready to move on into a more adult way of living. I know this sounds crazy, but I am ready to stop getting drunk, stop hooking up, stop talking about people, stop being talked about, stop being awkward about things that do not matter or are not true, stop caring what anyone thinks of me (though I don't think that last one will ever stop). I am tired of it, really tired. And of trying to impress. I think no matter how laid back you are, and I am pretty laid back, there is always a push to impress. Drives me nuts. Who's looking? I dunno. I dunno.
But, I am pumped for these last few weeks. 8th grade, writing my thesis, doing something intellectual. And of course Spring Weekend and time with my lovahs and friends, and Cape Week and Graduation. Whoa. Let's make it a great last few weeks.