I love bitching about everything...well...when I'm in the mood for it.
Why is it I'm starting to hate the internet?
Why is it I'm so easy to piss off?
Why is it I feel like crap all the time?
Is Queenstown getting to me THIS much?
Ok, for those of you who think I no longer hate Queenstown...you are way wrong! Big Time Wrong!!!
I have never liked Queenstown, never will, so don't kid yourself.
Yes I am depressed. No I don't know why. It's not entirely Queenstown. I have friends...none of which are in Queenstown. I don't want any here cos then I won't have to leave them behind when I leave here. I am never staying here once I am qualified, if I can last that long. No, I'm not going to commit suicide, don't be stupid, that's the easy way out. I'm stronger than that, I know I am.
I have been recently contemplating methods of getting out of here. I will follow these up soon and well, we'll see how things turn out. It might fuck things up further but it will be better for me in the long run.
And yet another question: Why can I not say this stuff to my friends and family and others around me? Why do I have to feel I have to use this as an avenue for venting my darkest thoughts? I am an angry young man!!! Don't let anything tell you otherwise. It's who I am at the moment. But I will never vent it out on people I like/care about/personally know. So people I know...you don't have to live in fear of my anger and/or fists. (That's not a joke either, that's the way I feel.)
In all honesty, there have been moments where I have felt like walking out of my job, moving back to Invercargill, and even leaving the country. Leaving the country wouldn't solve anything, especially now that I have a car. Walking out of my job would destroy my life because it would wreck my credit rating and I'd have debt collectors on my ass. However if I lined up a job in Invercargill first, then I could walk out of my job, and into my new one...whatever that turns out to be.
Oh by the way, I have a people I hate list, it includes: anyone that has lied to me, anyone that has deliberately pissed me off at inappropriate times (an inappropriate time is when I am already pissed off).
Bring on 2004, because 2003 sucks already.
Why is it I'm so easy to piss off?
Why is it I feel like crap all the time?
Is Queenstown getting to me THIS much?
Ok, for those of you who think I no longer hate Queenstown...you are way wrong! Big Time Wrong!!!
I have never liked Queenstown, never will, so don't kid yourself.
Yes I am depressed. No I don't know why. It's not entirely Queenstown. I have friends...none of which are in Queenstown. I don't want any here cos then I won't have to leave them behind when I leave here. I am never staying here once I am qualified, if I can last that long. No, I'm not going to commit suicide, don't be stupid, that's the easy way out. I'm stronger than that, I know I am.
I have been recently contemplating methods of getting out of here. I will follow these up soon and well, we'll see how things turn out. It might fuck things up further but it will be better for me in the long run.
And yet another question: Why can I not say this stuff to my friends and family and others around me? Why do I have to feel I have to use this as an avenue for venting my darkest thoughts? I am an angry young man!!! Don't let anything tell you otherwise. It's who I am at the moment. But I will never vent it out on people I like/care about/personally know. So people I know...you don't have to live in fear of my anger and/or fists. (That's not a joke either, that's the way I feel.)
In all honesty, there have been moments where I have felt like walking out of my job, moving back to Invercargill, and even leaving the country. Leaving the country wouldn't solve anything, especially now that I have a car. Walking out of my job would destroy my life because it would wreck my credit rating and I'd have debt collectors on my ass. However if I lined up a job in Invercargill first, then I could walk out of my job, and into my new one...whatever that turns out to be.
Oh by the way, I have a people I hate list, it includes: anyone that has lied to me, anyone that has deliberately pissed me off at inappropriate times (an inappropriate time is when I am already pissed off).
Bring on 2004, because 2003 sucks already.