a man learning how to fall?
so its finally down to less than a month and i'll be gone.
a lot has gone on.. and it almost feels like im dying. not in a tragic way or anything, just this kid i can't let go finally tired of kicking and screaming and we're finally goin to bed. whats so funny about this is i think this can be said of all the residence of champion safe houses we made. not the fact that we all grew up or that any of us are going to. but we always were kids with dreams aspirations. and i'll be the first to say life is shitty. so stuff like this keeps us going. i just chuckle at the thought that in the end we weren't so different after all..we just all took different paths in dealing with change. i don't think i can hate anyone for that. granted i feel like this ideal i've built has been shaken a bit.. but my core my morals are still the same, i just have to adjust myself to this "sudden" change. enough of that though!
i think regardless of that..i've actually put forth an effort to meet new people and in these past couple of months have i met some..people i really really admired and it makes me feel good i can still find so many awesome people in the world it makes this a lot less hard to do. because i figure i'll just meet more and more in my travels. so all you people i've met, remet, got to know thank you for givin me hope in people without you i don't think i could be as confident as i am that im doing the right thing. hell even the dudes who have been there all along.. i don't know what i'd do without you. i dunno. its you guys that let me wake up everyday and like myself. regardless of how scared or how much i don't want to go..you guys through your actions personalitys ..hell being alive let me know im doing the right thing. so no one go dying on me and i promise to do the same alright?
till then!
a lot has gone on.. and it almost feels like im dying. not in a tragic way or anything, just this kid i can't let go finally tired of kicking and screaming and we're finally goin to bed. whats so funny about this is i think this can be said of all the residence of champion safe houses we made. not the fact that we all grew up or that any of us are going to. but we always were kids with dreams aspirations. and i'll be the first to say life is shitty. so stuff like this keeps us going. i just chuckle at the thought that in the end we weren't so different after all..we just all took different paths in dealing with change. i don't think i can hate anyone for that. granted i feel like this ideal i've built has been shaken a bit.. but my core my morals are still the same, i just have to adjust myself to this "sudden" change. enough of that though!
i think regardless of that..i've actually put forth an effort to meet new people and in these past couple of months have i met some..people i really really admired and it makes me feel good i can still find so many awesome people in the world it makes this a lot less hard to do. because i figure i'll just meet more and more in my travels. so all you people i've met, remet, got to know thank you for givin me hope in people without you i don't think i could be as confident as i am that im doing the right thing. hell even the dudes who have been there all along.. i don't know what i'd do without you. i dunno. its you guys that let me wake up everyday and like myself. regardless of how scared or how much i don't want to go..you guys through your actions personalitys ..hell being alive let me know im doing the right thing. so no one go dying on me and i promise to do the same alright?
till then!