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This week sucked like a french whore. Yep, I said it. Oh, and hello to Megan Rizos : )
I want to scream and cry and break things and paint over everything and then rip it up and tear it down and then do it all over again. I want to shave my head and knock over a gas station and snort coke lines and use heroin and drink straight from the bottle and chain smoke and swear and kill and slash my wrists and run away from home and not come back- I want to sleep under bridges and on the streets and beg and steal and sell my body and scrape away at every last bit of dignity until it's all drained and done with. I want to destroy art museums, dismantle schools and set fire to churches. I want to start riots, vandalize cemetaries, disrupt funerals and ruin weddings. I want to be classified, stereotyped, hated, pitied, crusaded against, targeted, and unloved. I'm Nancy without Sid, Courtney without Kurt, Brody without Tim. I'm Ruby Soho, and my heart is bleeding
I want to scream and cry and break things and paint over everything and then rip it up and tear it down and then do it all over again. I want to shave my head and knock over a gas station and snort coke lines and use heroin and drink straight from the bottle and chain smoke and swear and kill and slash my wrists and run away from home and not come back- I want to sleep under bridges and on the streets and beg and steal and sell my body and scrape away at every last bit of dignity until it's all drained and done with. I want to destroy art museums, dismantle schools and set fire to churches. I want to start riots, vandalize cemetaries, disrupt funerals and ruin weddings. I want to be classified, stereotyped, hated, pitied, crusaded against, targeted, and unloved. I'm Nancy without Sid, Courtney without Kurt, Brody without Tim. I'm Ruby Soho, and my heart is bleeding