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when did i become a parent of people older then me? that's how addiction starts. im not okay with that.
im not okay in my own skin. i look in the mirror and see fat. i see self conscious. i see insecure. i see a geek. i wanna lose weight. there i said it. sue me. im thinking of going on the lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper diet just to cleanse my body. lord knows i need it.
my appetite is constant. it's unbearable. i need to be eating constantly. soup and celery sticks with hummus? maybe that will help.
i've never been able to be fully comfortable with someone. i don't and never have had "best" friends. i've had really good friends, but i can't talk to people most of the time. i put on a smile only to be a creep at home. i sometimes wonder if i was a literary character and people were reading my book and saw the difference what they would think of me.
i love fruit. i wish i could eat it more often.
today starts a new day to correct an error.
im not okay in my own skin. i look in the mirror and see fat. i see self conscious. i see insecure. i see a geek. i wanna lose weight. there i said it. sue me. im thinking of going on the lemon juice, maple syrup, and cayenne pepper diet just to cleanse my body. lord knows i need it.
my appetite is constant. it's unbearable. i need to be eating constantly. soup and celery sticks with hummus? maybe that will help.
i've never been able to be fully comfortable with someone. i don't and never have had "best" friends. i've had really good friends, but i can't talk to people most of the time. i put on a smile only to be a creep at home. i sometimes wonder if i was a literary character and people were reading my book and saw the difference what they would think of me.
i love fruit. i wish i could eat it more often.
today starts a new day to correct an error.