just the stuff thats been clouding my mind
so basically I've had TONS of time to just sit and think. And I was stupid and started thinking about college. It seems only my friends and family around my age think that I could excell in my dream. Everyone else says "oh you could do it, but..." and they always find something to make my dream seem childish. Hell even on my birthday my sweet 16 I got lectured by my grandma. then a couple days after I had gotten grounded the 2nd time mom says that I could be a good lawyer...cuz I like to argue, and dad says that he thinks the marines would be good for me, and that boot camp would do me good! I mean what the hell?! Then they went on to say "Oh you could do it Ari, but its a hard feild to get into". Grammie (the grandma that lectured me on my bday) says I should get a degree in something before I go onto Wyotech, but I don't see how a degree in something like literature or english or art history will help me with building bikes. I mean my junior year is just beginning to start, and already I wish I was a frekin freshman again! I'm so lost and confused I don't know which way is up! I don't know what I'm gonna do anymore. I want to do my dream like everyone says, but I don't want my family to disapprove what I do with my life. Its made me become hesatinte when asked what I want to do, what college I want to go to. I am almost ready to give up.
♥ Ari
♥ Ari