today is a day. the kind of day i hate
so a while ago i posted.
i told you people that i had two fish now.
well the gold one died.
it was sad, but now the white one is huge.
this week pretty much sucks though.
i haven't gotten to see my Sydney in far too long.
AND it seems like my schedule and Sydney's schedule completely fuck eachothers.
so i dont hardly ever get to see her :(
i love her dearly though.
even if i cant see her all the time she is still mine forever.
and ever. <3<3<3<3
in further news.
school is going well.
my classes are pretty easy.
mostly just time consuming.
today is kind of a weird day.
it seems like it is going by slow slow slow.
and there is not much happening today to make it a good day.
i get to finish my ever soo slow day by going straight to work after school.
i probably should be working on my lab right now. but i dont want to.
ive been thinking a lot lately about my life.
there are soo many things that i could have done better.
i mean i shouldnt dwell on the past because i cant change it, but i cant help but look at all of the things i continually do wrong.
its not like i do something wrong then look back and get mad.
i do something wrong, then i look back see how i should have done it, then the next day i do the same thing wrong the same way.
i wish i was a better boyfriend.
i wish i could talk to you all day.
i wish that one day when you wake up there will be a note on your chest, a love letter from me, and surrounding you 1000 roses.
i know you dont like flowers, but i dont care.
maybe one day ill have enough money.
then i can take you in my hand and show you how i want us to be.
in a house, as a family, till the day life parts from us.
i wish i could be the romantic.
be the person who gives you everything you want, how you want it.
maybe im fooling myself, maybe i can never achieve the person i strive to be.
well i dont know what else to say....
i told you people that i had two fish now.
well the gold one died.
it was sad, but now the white one is huge.
this week pretty much sucks though.
i haven't gotten to see my Sydney in far too long.
AND it seems like my schedule and Sydney's schedule completely fuck eachothers.
so i dont hardly ever get to see her :(
i love her dearly though.
even if i cant see her all the time she is still mine forever.
and ever. <3<3<3<3
in further news.
school is going well.
my classes are pretty easy.
mostly just time consuming.
today is kind of a weird day.
it seems like it is going by slow slow slow.
and there is not much happening today to make it a good day.
i get to finish my ever soo slow day by going straight to work after school.
i probably should be working on my lab right now. but i dont want to.
ive been thinking a lot lately about my life.
there are soo many things that i could have done better.
i mean i shouldnt dwell on the past because i cant change it, but i cant help but look at all of the things i continually do wrong.
its not like i do something wrong then look back and get mad.
i do something wrong, then i look back see how i should have done it, then the next day i do the same thing wrong the same way.
i wish i was a better boyfriend.
i wish i could talk to you all day.
i wish that one day when you wake up there will be a note on your chest, a love letter from me, and surrounding you 1000 roses.
i know you dont like flowers, but i dont care.
maybe one day ill have enough money.
then i can take you in my hand and show you how i want us to be.
in a house, as a family, till the day life parts from us.
i wish i could be the romantic.
be the person who gives you everything you want, how you want it.
maybe im fooling myself, maybe i can never achieve the person i strive to be.
well i dont know what else to say....