Traumatised.
I nearly broke the other leg today. FML.
Was going down the stairs with both my crutches and suddenly lost my balance. Within around 3 seconds, I fell forward, my crutches fell, I screamed at the top of my voice and miraculously hopped down 5 steps with my right leg so damn stably. It sounds no big to others I guess, but in that fleeting moment, I was so afraid that I'll break the other leg (or tear any other ligament since I'm born with quote, unusually-loose -.- ligaments according to my physiotherapy), I was so scared that I even thought that I'll die there -.- Dumbass ikr, I was only 6 steps high... Moving around in this annoying pair of crutches just makes me feel so weak, so vulnerable, so reliant, so pathetic.
I hate causing so damn much trouble to others so I didn't bring the wheelchair today -- it would definitely mean troubling one less person every moment yah but I ended up walking so much that I can feel my right ankle feeling strained already. Argh I've sprained both my ankles over a dozen times since Primary 5, I'm so apprehensive that I can't walk on either leg anymore sigh.
Damn it.
Nationals starts this Wed. I should go and watch, right? But how do I walk on the field with my frigging crutches. Sigh.
7 14 17 21 28. When can I join y'all? Don't ask me, 'cause I myself don't know the answer. Sigh. Karen has always said that I always seem so laid-back in Touch. I guess it's true, I've never really pushed myself hard enough. Yet I gotta realise that I wanna be in Nats with my team (not the team, not your team, do you get it?) so much. Only after getting injured so badly then I realise, I want this so badly. Otw to school this morning, I wanted to ask bee who're we playing against for Nats first match this Wed but I stopped myself. Who am I to ask "we"? I ended up asking "who're y'all playing"? Sigh. Do you realise it?
I don't wanna wait for 22th May only.
Was going down the stairs with both my crutches and suddenly lost my balance. Within around 3 seconds, I fell forward, my crutches fell, I screamed at the top of my voice and miraculously hopped down 5 steps with my right leg so damn stably. It sounds no big to others I guess, but in that fleeting moment, I was so afraid that I'll break the other leg (or tear any other ligament since I'm born with quote, unusually-loose -.- ligaments according to my physiotherapy), I was so scared that I even thought that I'll die there -.- Dumbass ikr, I was only 6 steps high... Moving around in this annoying pair of crutches just makes me feel so weak, so vulnerable, so reliant, so pathetic.
I hate causing so damn much trouble to others so I didn't bring the wheelchair today -- it would definitely mean troubling one less person every moment yah but I ended up walking so much that I can feel my right ankle feeling strained already. Argh I've sprained both my ankles over a dozen times since Primary 5, I'm so apprehensive that I can't walk on either leg anymore sigh.
Damn it.
Nationals starts this Wed. I should go and watch, right? But how do I walk on the field with my frigging crutches. Sigh.
7 14 17 21 28. When can I join y'all? Don't ask me, 'cause I myself don't know the answer. Sigh. Karen has always said that I always seem so laid-back in Touch. I guess it's true, I've never really pushed myself hard enough. Yet I gotta realise that I wanna be in Nats with my team (not the team, not your team, do you get it?) so much. Only after getting injured so badly then I realise, I want this so badly. Otw to school this morning, I wanted to ask bee who're we playing against for Nats first match this Wed but I stopped myself. Who am I to ask "we"? I ended up asking "who're y'all playing"? Sigh. Do you realise it?
I don't wanna wait for 22th May only.