Love
Love..... What is it?
I thought I knew at many different points in my life.
I have felt love in many different forms. Love of Family, Love of Friends, Love of the "One".
It's that last one that really has me thinking.
This type of love is a double edged sword. At times it can put you on cloud 9, sittin' right on top of the world. but then there is the down side of this type of love. The side that cuts you so deeply, you feel like you could just die.
Yes, I'm being Emo, but I need to get this out.
I'm lonely. I have no one to call "my own". I watch most of my friends running around just as happy as they can be with the person they love and sometimes it just kills me. I see it, and I crave it.
I know what my problem is. I sit at home after work every night because I'm depressed and don't feel like going out and trying to change everything. I'm shy as hell anyway, so being out there would be just as bad.
Like any person, there are those I crush on.
There are a few ex's even. One I talk to (well text) on a daily basis, and another that I've only seen a few times in the last few years, the last just the other week at another friends new place.
Another crush I've had for a few years now, but i figure I'd just end up being "The creepy old man"
I just wonder if it's all worth it. At what point is being alone and lonely better than putting your heart out there and having it broken time and time again.
*sigh*
I thought I knew at many different points in my life.
I have felt love in many different forms. Love of Family, Love of Friends, Love of the "One".
It's that last one that really has me thinking.
This type of love is a double edged sword. At times it can put you on cloud 9, sittin' right on top of the world. but then there is the down side of this type of love. The side that cuts you so deeply, you feel like you could just die.
Yes, I'm being Emo, but I need to get this out.
I'm lonely. I have no one to call "my own". I watch most of my friends running around just as happy as they can be with the person they love and sometimes it just kills me. I see it, and I crave it.
I know what my problem is. I sit at home after work every night because I'm depressed and don't feel like going out and trying to change everything. I'm shy as hell anyway, so being out there would be just as bad.
Like any person, there are those I crush on.
There are a few ex's even. One I talk to (well text) on a daily basis, and another that I've only seen a few times in the last few years, the last just the other week at another friends new place.
Another crush I've had for a few years now, but i figure I'd just end up being "The creepy old man"
I just wonder if it's all worth it. At what point is being alone and lonely better than putting your heart out there and having it broken time and time again.
*sigh*