Back again...

[thayme]

I'm here making another entry, which means that my miserable life drags on in a way that makes me wish I had died the day before. Since yesterday, I decided to hold off posting my Sailor Neptune Fan Fic until it is good enough for her to read and finally love me back for. But In my crappy prep-school I had to take a class to make up for the ones I failed last year. I can't believe I failed so many classes last year, it's all my teacher's fault. They just don't like me. No one does. The kids that suck up to them and act fake get straight A's, but I just sleep and I just be myself and I fail. That's not fair at all. So in this new class I have they make us write some poems. heres a couple that I wrote today

All things turn to black
The rain falls like angels dieing from heaven
Ever toiling, life rolls on
One painful day at a time
I look up, and see only darkness in the sky
The world is dark to me
Everyone looks away when I come
No one understands my pain

and my favorite one is this

I toss and turn at night
Trying to smother myself with my pillow
But each time I stop shy
Do I fear death? No
Do I fear life? No
I have nothing to live for, but my biological functions will not let me die
Why has satan programmed me for life
Each day is a hell
I wish only for darkness to overcome me

its very deep i hope people can understand it. maybe tomorrow i will put pics of me up but i dont have many friends but the posers who say they are my firends ill put pics of.

today was just as bad as every other day. i was only happy when i was writing my poems because it felt good to let people see my true inner self. my parents keep trying to buy my love today they said they love me and gave me a new xbox but i know they dont really love me its all a scam. someday they will turely love me for who i am but i doubt it because they dont undersatnd the pain that i go though every day.

thayme out again. if there is no post tomorrow it is because i have finally fuffilled my dreems.