*sigh* finally home
its been so long since i have put down my emotions in my journal, and i really need to do it right now because im finally home.
it all started just after chirstmas, my uncle came over who i really dont like and gave me a box of condoms. he was all ooh merry chirstmas cuz you get tons of pussy. it was really embarassing because he did it in front of the whole family, like everyone that i hate in one place. i had to run out of the room it was so bad. my dad was all ooh you dont get any pussy and my mom was like i think hes gay you got any ass condoms... damn parents say the love me then do shit like that? thats just wack.
so after this i ran up into the bathroom and decided to finally do it. so i drew a bath and got in a cut my wrists with a shaving razor!!! arnt you proud of me i finally got the guts to do it :))) but then the water overflowed and my dad came up and found me and decided to pretend to love me again and call the ambulance and they took me to the hospital and i got better. but then i had to go to court because apparently commiting suicide is illegal. thats sooooo stupid, its my body ill do what i want (btw sweet song@!!) so teh judge was all oooh you are unstable goto rehab for 3 months.
the government is just like everyone else because they dont understand me. always they just go and do what they want never thinking about my feelings. its so stupid that they do that. i think that my parents wanted this to happen too. they always want to get rid of me and they finally did it. i had to goto a place upstate where all these wackos that ate paint and shit where it was soooo creepy. so these doctors came and told me i was depressed and shit and gave me pills and talked to me and said my parents cared thats why i was here.
bullshit. if my parents cared they would have let me goto the marlyn manson concert last month but instead they sent me to the loonie bin. i hate them soooo much. the doctors said it was healthy to do arty stuff so i wrote a poem about my parents:
mother bird
makes her nest
and laies only one egg
egg hatches to little bird
mother bird
gets food for baby bird
but vomits on its face
mother bird
acts out of "love"
but vomits on its face
mother bird
does not really love baby bird
it is fake
see mother bird is like my mom and i am like the baby because my mom gets me food and other stuff but to give it to me she vomits all over me. woah, im deep. gimmie a second.
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ok so the doctors gave me prozac because they said i was depressed and shit, so i said fuck that and i flushed my pills down the toilet. they didnt know stupid doctors. if they are so smart why arnt they rock stars like ozzy ozborne, curt colbane, and albert einsteine? they are so fake just like everyone else.
so yesterday they let me out. i had to stay an extra month because they said i wasent making enough progress. duh, i cant make progress if im fine to begin with. stupid people. they need to think about me next time. so when i got home my parents had a little vomitonmyface party where they gave me all this stupid shit and were all oooh we are so glad you are home we love you so much. and i was all stupid bitch i hate you! no just kidding i actually said stupid bitch go away! haha no really it was great she was all you dumb brat you didnt change at all and she tried to hit me but i was like see you dont love me dumb bitch! it was so cool!!
then i ran up to my room and slammed the door and my dad was all come out here right now and apologize and i was like you dont know what i went through! you are a stupid bitch! haha im so sweet he was like young man blah blah blah i hate you. well he might not have said that i didnt listen but im sure its what he said because he was all screaming and shit. but whatever. they will feel sorry when i kill myself again. they just dont get it.
yeah so my dad left then i decided to update because i wanted to tell everyone what happened. it was really gay. i hate gay people.
oooh also when i was in the crazy house i got to draw and write and i wrote a bunch of sailor neptune stories like the one i did before maybe i will put them up.
I LUV SAILOR NEPTUNE!!!!!!
~Thamye :P~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
it all started just after chirstmas, my uncle came over who i really dont like and gave me a box of condoms. he was all ooh merry chirstmas cuz you get tons of pussy. it was really embarassing because he did it in front of the whole family, like everyone that i hate in one place. i had to run out of the room it was so bad. my dad was all ooh you dont get any pussy and my mom was like i think hes gay you got any ass condoms... damn parents say the love me then do shit like that? thats just wack.
so after this i ran up into the bathroom and decided to finally do it. so i drew a bath and got in a cut my wrists with a shaving razor!!! arnt you proud of me i finally got the guts to do it :))) but then the water overflowed and my dad came up and found me and decided to pretend to love me again and call the ambulance and they took me to the hospital and i got better. but then i had to go to court because apparently commiting suicide is illegal. thats sooooo stupid, its my body ill do what i want (btw sweet song@!!) so teh judge was all oooh you are unstable goto rehab for 3 months.
the government is just like everyone else because they dont understand me. always they just go and do what they want never thinking about my feelings. its so stupid that they do that. i think that my parents wanted this to happen too. they always want to get rid of me and they finally did it. i had to goto a place upstate where all these wackos that ate paint and shit where it was soooo creepy. so these doctors came and told me i was depressed and shit and gave me pills and talked to me and said my parents cared thats why i was here.
bullshit. if my parents cared they would have let me goto the marlyn manson concert last month but instead they sent me to the loonie bin. i hate them soooo much. the doctors said it was healthy to do arty stuff so i wrote a poem about my parents:
mother bird
makes her nest
and laies only one egg
egg hatches to little bird
mother bird
gets food for baby bird
but vomits on its face
mother bird
acts out of "love"
but vomits on its face
mother bird
does not really love baby bird
it is fake
see mother bird is like my mom and i am like the baby because my mom gets me food and other stuff but to give it to me she vomits all over me. woah, im deep. gimmie a second.
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ok so the doctors gave me prozac because they said i was depressed and shit, so i said fuck that and i flushed my pills down the toilet. they didnt know stupid doctors. if they are so smart why arnt they rock stars like ozzy ozborne, curt colbane, and albert einsteine? they are so fake just like everyone else.
so yesterday they let me out. i had to stay an extra month because they said i wasent making enough progress. duh, i cant make progress if im fine to begin with. stupid people. they need to think about me next time. so when i got home my parents had a little vomitonmyface party where they gave me all this stupid shit and were all oooh we are so glad you are home we love you so much. and i was all stupid bitch i hate you! no just kidding i actually said stupid bitch go away! haha no really it was great she was all you dumb brat you didnt change at all and she tried to hit me but i was like see you dont love me dumb bitch! it was so cool!!
then i ran up to my room and slammed the door and my dad was all come out here right now and apologize and i was like you dont know what i went through! you are a stupid bitch! haha im so sweet he was like young man blah blah blah i hate you. well he might not have said that i didnt listen but im sure its what he said because he was all screaming and shit. but whatever. they will feel sorry when i kill myself again. they just dont get it.
yeah so my dad left then i decided to update because i wanted to tell everyone what happened. it was really gay. i hate gay people.
oooh also when i was in the crazy house i got to draw and write and i wrote a bunch of sailor neptune stories like the one i did before maybe i will put them up.
I LUV SAILOR NEPTUNE!!!!!!
~Thamye :P~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~