obviously nothing.
As everyone goes back to school, I am not. I don't feel up to going to school this semester. I haven't fully healed from my summer and really hope I can do some healing in my time off from school... I'll still be working, even if I am growing to hate the job... I am going to look into looking for another job. A job where I don't have to look after a kid. I'm not happy with that part of the job I have... I really don't want to be a babysitter... I love the kid, but I don't want the responsibility of looking after him. Once in a while is fine for me... But not every week... I mean, yes once a week, but it's a bit much for me. But my telling my Dad how I feel about the babysitting and how I do not like it. I don't mind once in a while, but not all the time. And yet I am stuck taking care of a kid. Well the past two weeks I didn't have a kid around, and that was great for me. But I know that isn't going to last long. Rachel loves to torment me with her kid... More than likely she's going to bring him along with her to work tomorrow and I'll be miserable. Yes only until she goes home, but still he's too much of a handful to me... So to be away from being a babysitter is to get another job. Plus with getting another job I'd get more hours and I wouldn't have to stress about saving up money to pay for things, like paying for a new computer and for my loans... So I need more hours to be able to pay for stuff that I need, and possibly even getting an apartment of my own. I really don't want to be a burden to my dad and stepmom anymore. I think it's just time that I try to be out on my own. And maybe that will help me make new friends so that I don't have to feel so alone anymore. I'm sick of it.
