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ok so i miss angela. like alot.
i miss my best friend.
like ever since last year we've really grown apart and i thought it was going to be alright and stuff but i never thought it would end like us basically ending our friendship then us gradually getting back together as friends. well now we talk all the time on aim and facebook. and i really miss her. i remember lookinga t all the old pictures i had and like i realized that even though we decided to not be best friends anymore.. it just kinda kills me inside knowing that in 6th grade we decided to be best friends and then we almost threw 5 years of friendship down the drain over something like changing schools and really its happening. change is happening im loosing the girl who i could talk to about anything.
over summer it was alright cause i accumulated krystal and steph and marykate and stuff but like honestly its not the same. she and i shared the passion of hating er and church and god and everything we literally were sisters we basically were twins. and then the end of the year happened and everything blew up and we broke apart. and i freeking miss her.
i dont know who she is anymore. since we havent had time to catch up. we talk about hanging out and stuff but i dont know if thats going to happen. and seriously this new years we probally arent going to hangout even though it was a tradition that would have lasted our whole high school career. but i guess not. school without her is insane i hate it. im not enjoying it at all. last year her and i grew apart cause we didnt have any classes together and i didnt like her bf and like everything was just dumb and petty and i wish that i got to spend more time with her even though we spent almost every waking minute together. and i never regret that. shes my best friend and i love her. honestly i miss her and my life isnt the same without her. i feel like apart of me is missing.
i changed so much over the summer and i thought it was for the better. but im not so sure anymore... i feel like loosing touch with her was the worst thing ever. i dont know, i just wish we were best friends again. i know that i wont feel like the old me like the old angela-amanda duo.
i miss people getting us mixed up, i miss singing in coffee houses with her, talking about boys, spending hours on the phone, sleepovers, making fun of people, shopping with angel, mall days, taking pictures, modeling, our inside jokes. and EVERYTHING.
since we've distanced from eachother i cant even remember any of our inside jokes and i hate that i absolutly hate it, cause i want to remember so much. i know she has her photography and i have my shows but we were so darn close and everything fell apart and im seriously missing part of me. and im just not the same without her in my life. i dont know how much more i can take of not seeing her, not knowing if we can truely be friends again. not aim friends but friends that hangout and call eachother and do things together.
i just miss my best friend. and i dont know what im going to do if i dont get her back.
i miss my best friend.
like ever since last year we've really grown apart and i thought it was going to be alright and stuff but i never thought it would end like us basically ending our friendship then us gradually getting back together as friends. well now we talk all the time on aim and facebook. and i really miss her. i remember lookinga t all the old pictures i had and like i realized that even though we decided to not be best friends anymore.. it just kinda kills me inside knowing that in 6th grade we decided to be best friends and then we almost threw 5 years of friendship down the drain over something like changing schools and really its happening. change is happening im loosing the girl who i could talk to about anything.
over summer it was alright cause i accumulated krystal and steph and marykate and stuff but like honestly its not the same. she and i shared the passion of hating er and church and god and everything we literally were sisters we basically were twins. and then the end of the year happened and everything blew up and we broke apart. and i freeking miss her.
i dont know who she is anymore. since we havent had time to catch up. we talk about hanging out and stuff but i dont know if thats going to happen. and seriously this new years we probally arent going to hangout even though it was a tradition that would have lasted our whole high school career. but i guess not. school without her is insane i hate it. im not enjoying it at all. last year her and i grew apart cause we didnt have any classes together and i didnt like her bf and like everything was just dumb and petty and i wish that i got to spend more time with her even though we spent almost every waking minute together. and i never regret that. shes my best friend and i love her. honestly i miss her and my life isnt the same without her. i feel like apart of me is missing.
i changed so much over the summer and i thought it was for the better. but im not so sure anymore... i feel like loosing touch with her was the worst thing ever. i dont know, i just wish we were best friends again. i know that i wont feel like the old me like the old angela-amanda duo.
i miss people getting us mixed up, i miss singing in coffee houses with her, talking about boys, spending hours on the phone, sleepovers, making fun of people, shopping with angel, mall days, taking pictures, modeling, our inside jokes. and EVERYTHING.
since we've distanced from eachother i cant even remember any of our inside jokes and i hate that i absolutly hate it, cause i want to remember so much. i know she has her photography and i have my shows but we were so darn close and everything fell apart and im seriously missing part of me. and im just not the same without her in my life. i dont know how much more i can take of not seeing her, not knowing if we can truely be friends again. not aim friends but friends that hangout and call eachother and do things together.
i just miss my best friend. and i dont know what im going to do if i dont get her back.