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So.... I went out to the barrel last night with Tim and had a good time. It was dart night so Drew, Brian, Fink, Barret, etc. were there. It felt really good to go out and have a few drinks with friends. It wasn't so nice to have to wait at the bar while I sobered up so I could drive home, but it went ok. The phone call that I've been semi-waiting for finally happened. Dave called to apologize and get back together LIKE WE ALWAYS DO and I said that we shouldn't see each other. He wasn't expecting that and I think his feelings are hurt now. This is the hardest part. I can't deal with it when I know that he hurts. Now I'm having all kinds of thoughts about how we should just get back together blah blah blah. But I know that we're not compatible. From now until the end of eternity I will think that he needs my help and try to help him and he will resent it. It's just really hard right now. I just want to make things feel all better. ARUGH!!!