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i broke it off with hunter.
told him for some reason this past month i've been thinking about ben alot.
and i told him that i was still very much in love with ben.
and i told him that i thought i was ready to be with someone else, but i'm simply not.
and i guess i'm not.
i dont' get it.
how can i still long for someone who wants nothing to do with me.
someone who just pretends i don't even exist in the world.
which is fun.
fuck, i understand.
he's not a bad person for it.
and i hope he's happy, and truly FUCKING HAPPY.
i really just want him to be happy.
but i feel bad for hunter.
this is his reply:
(his screen name= he plays lacrosse.. so thats not LAX its laCROSSE.. its like subing the x for christmas.. i'm only explaining this because it took me forever to understand what it meant.. ha i'm blonde though)
laxwarrior1018: tell me when ur ready cuz ill always be there... i aint goin anywere
Dom xo: thats really nice hunter.. but i have a feeling this is going to take me awhile to fully get over.. it could be another year
laxwarrior1018: like i said i aint goin anywere and this doesnt mean that im gonna stop talkin to u... i still might call u every night just cuz i can
Dom xo: well i hope you just understand that a relationship isn't something i'm looking for right now, or anytime soon or even in the next 6 months.
laxwarrior1018: i know that... i was actually surprised that u said yes when i asked u out
not everyone can be understanding.
but he is.
and i can't thank him enough for it.
as much as i feel bad.
i felt 10x's as worse because my heart still lies with someone else.
this is going to take a bit longer than i thought.
told him for some reason this past month i've been thinking about ben alot.
and i told him that i was still very much in love with ben.
and i told him that i thought i was ready to be with someone else, but i'm simply not.
and i guess i'm not.
i dont' get it.
how can i still long for someone who wants nothing to do with me.
someone who just pretends i don't even exist in the world.
which is fun.
fuck, i understand.
he's not a bad person for it.
and i hope he's happy, and truly FUCKING HAPPY.
i really just want him to be happy.
but i feel bad for hunter.
this is his reply:
(his screen name= he plays lacrosse.. so thats not LAX its laCROSSE.. its like subing the x for christmas.. i'm only explaining this because it took me forever to understand what it meant.. ha i'm blonde though)
laxwarrior1018: tell me when ur ready cuz ill always be there... i aint goin anywere
Dom xo: thats really nice hunter.. but i have a feeling this is going to take me awhile to fully get over.. it could be another year
laxwarrior1018: like i said i aint goin anywere and this doesnt mean that im gonna stop talkin to u... i still might call u every night just cuz i can
Dom xo: well i hope you just understand that a relationship isn't something i'm looking for right now, or anytime soon or even in the next 6 months.
laxwarrior1018: i know that... i was actually surprised that u said yes when i asked u out
not everyone can be understanding.
but he is.
and i can't thank him enough for it.
as much as i feel bad.
i felt 10x's as worse because my heart still lies with someone else.
this is going to take a bit longer than i thought.