Fuck everyone
So a 2 weeks left, and it's all done with..Kinda excitin'
But then again, heartbreaking. My best friend leaves for college the same day I move out, that's going to be way too hard. And I feel as though we are drifting apart, as we speak. We haven't hung out since a few weeks ago, I'm the one to call her..She called me while I was at a party last Saturday or Wednesday..whatever day, and was yelling at me b/c "I drink with everyone else besides her" and I told her that I hadn't even had 1/2 of anything yet, that I wasn't going to drink a lot, and then she asked if I told my dad I was at her house, and I was like no, I told him I was at Amber's. (And that's where I was) And ever since then, there's been this huge tension..I couldn't handle it anymore, and texted her lastnight asking her what was up, and she claimed nothing, and it's just that we never have the same days off, and have been haning with different ppl. But even so, the case is she's mad at me. I can tell. I went in and saw her today, and I was hangin with Mike, so he was there too..and then some other ppl came in to see her, and she completely ignored me. So I left after 2 minutes (if that) of being there. I had a dream lastnight, too..that I confronted her in person about this, and I was the one who angrily stormed off.
When I left today, I was almost in tears b/c I hate how the people who I thought were so close, and would always be right here (maybe not physically, but you know..) are leaving, and really couldn't care less. It's unbareable. I hate this feeling, absolutely hate it.
And then there's pam. I come home tonight 45 mins before my curfew, she yells at me for not callin to tell her i was on my way (little did she know I did...but the phone was off the hook, bc I saw it in the living room, still on...stupid bitch) and then for washing my hair in the shower today..i was like bullshit pam, I did yesterday, but not today..you even saw me walk up the stairs with the towel on my head...god I hate her SO FUCKING MUCH.
Jeez, I'm sorry..I'll stop and try to fall asleep
But then again, heartbreaking. My best friend leaves for college the same day I move out, that's going to be way too hard. And I feel as though we are drifting apart, as we speak. We haven't hung out since a few weeks ago, I'm the one to call her..She called me while I was at a party last Saturday or Wednesday..whatever day, and was yelling at me b/c "I drink with everyone else besides her" and I told her that I hadn't even had 1/2 of anything yet, that I wasn't going to drink a lot, and then she asked if I told my dad I was at her house, and I was like no, I told him I was at Amber's. (And that's where I was) And ever since then, there's been this huge tension..I couldn't handle it anymore, and texted her lastnight asking her what was up, and she claimed nothing, and it's just that we never have the same days off, and have been haning with different ppl. But even so, the case is she's mad at me. I can tell. I went in and saw her today, and I was hangin with Mike, so he was there too..and then some other ppl came in to see her, and she completely ignored me. So I left after 2 minutes (if that) of being there. I had a dream lastnight, too..that I confronted her in person about this, and I was the one who angrily stormed off.
When I left today, I was almost in tears b/c I hate how the people who I thought were so close, and would always be right here (maybe not physically, but you know..) are leaving, and really couldn't care less. It's unbareable. I hate this feeling, absolutely hate it.
And then there's pam. I come home tonight 45 mins before my curfew, she yells at me for not callin to tell her i was on my way (little did she know I did...but the phone was off the hook, bc I saw it in the living room, still on...stupid bitch) and then for washing my hair in the shower today..i was like bullshit pam, I did yesterday, but not today..you even saw me walk up the stairs with the towel on my head...god I hate her SO FUCKING MUCH.
Jeez, I'm sorry..I'll stop and try to fall asleep