lets just grow up. today was a horrible day.

[thats_so_you]

weekend was great. hung out and saw good people.

anyway, i've been ignoring phone calls because i want to get away from things right now. playing my guitar is fun.. i like it. yeah, i am going to be a rockstar, k?

im happy because ive always wanted an acoustic, but sometimes i wish i could just fall asleep to some one else who will play it for me. will write me songs.

some one i could sit for hours on the floor talking about video games to music to the little java  cafe' hang out were going to build together.

i want a boy who wont waste his life away on drinking or drugs.

i dont want him to be so sure about his life, but i want him to be sure who he loves.

but then i listen to one of my favorite songs, and i remember the line,
"love is supposed to be this bad, make you cry, mega ultra sad, if i told yah your all i ever had, would you walk on me? because i wouldn't walk on you."

then i think, its something we can't all have.

i do love him. even though it feels hard sometimes...