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this is what i said to danny, but he wouldnt read it..
danny i dont know what happen.. just last week you were saying i love you.. On the bus that one day when i kicked matt you said "i dont know what i would do without you" and Just last weekend when you got into that fight with you mom, i was right there trying to help you idk if i was helping or not. but i was there and i asked you if you want to break up and you said no theres nothing better. and then when we got back together you wrote that note saying you dont know why you wanted that break .. and you and i colide .. and how you missed us.. this weekend im sorry i annoyied you.. i didnt know you didnt want me not to text you all weekend other wise i wouldnt have. i really hope you still love me, and i hope maybe we can sort some of this out.. And i hope you dont really like Ally that way. you mean so much to me danny, without you i feel so lost. remember we fit together like a puzzel.. and remember all the times we had together.. do you just want to throw it all away like that.. Yeah i know i get you mad but im sorry.. i thought i put a smile on your face and made you laugh alot. i try too .. i love being with you danny, you make me soo happy inside you have no idea.. Remember that day that you cried with me, and said that it feels like i have been there forever. And remember that time at you house awhile ago when we got into a hug fight and you yelled at me and told me to leave you house and never come back you dont want to see me.. And then we settled it. and we watch the brave little toster, and i feel asleep and you started to cry cause you were worried about messing things up with us. Danny. i love you. I was looking in my math notebook and i read something you wrote to me Stacey + Danny <3 Forever. You one the first one to say you wanted to marry me, and you wanted to be with me for a long time. And we said that together for the longest time. i hope your feelings didnt just change lke that. My wont ever. i just want to settle this. You mean so much to me.. Remember that one time i went to the skate park for you, and i sat in the cold for like 5 hrs. just for you, just cause i love you, my parents said they would have come picked me up but i didnt go cause i wanted to stay with you and watch you skate cause i like watching you. Then remember we went to dinner with your family and remembe that fat lady that sat behind us. lol, and how you took a fork, maybe it was just cause you knew i was going to ask you to, but you remembered before i did. and you took one before i asked you. and then in the car you rested your head on my leg, and we kind of laid down together. Then when we went to dinner with my parents and everyone on easter and then we went to your house after and when we ate with your parents i didnt ask for the butter cause i was scared to lol .. and remember our sleep overs lol .. we watched saw, and we woke up together in eachothers arms, and you said to me the first time "hows it feel to wake up to my face in the morning" and i said "amazing" and you said you cant wait til we wake up next to eachother everyday. And remember how we always like planed out where we were going to get married and how our wedding would be.. and what our house would look like.. And how you would be riding your skate board from place to place and i would be riding my moose around lol .. and how we were going to get 10 ferrets.. and like 4 dogs .. and we were going to have a room where noone goes in. And all that cool stuff, and you said you would bring me with you if you ever go on tour. Notice how i remember everything you say to me, cause everything you say to me means so much. I remember basically everything that we have talked about and that we have planed. and i wont forget them. they mean so much to me. And how you said that one times "once we make it to a year then it will be two years then three then so on" And the promise ring you got me. and how i skipped school and stayed home to hang out with you on valentines day, and remember you walked all the way to my house in the rain, and that really meant alot to me. And that one day i rode your moms bike all the way to your house just to see you on 51105. And the bubble bath we took together that day. And the showers that we have taken together. And all the times that we have falling alseep together. And we played in the snow that one day, and we shoved snow that one day, and my mom made us breakfast that one day. And that day at the fight i was there and i was hitting brett and everything, i tried my best. Cause i seriously started to hurt when i seen you bleed. Whatever happens to you happens to me. You are seriously like my other half. i have feelings for you that you dont even know about. I smile when i hear your name or i see your pic, or i read something you wrote to me. I get so happy. i know alot of girls like you, and i know i dont compare to any of them. and there is nothing i can do about that. i dont know how many times i have said this but danny i love you so much. and i dont know if any of this will help the situation. but ill try anything. If we cant go back out, can we atleast have what we had when we were on the break. I was still happy then, i was extremely happy but i was happy. i am only extremely happy unless im with you. Thats when i can smile from ear to ear, and thats when my cheeks hurt from smiling so much. If you want me to stop asking so many question i will cause i relized i ask alot. and im sorry, i just have low self esteem.. i cant help that.. right now i have no self esteem. i feel like shit.. i dont want to make you feel bad or anything with this.. i dont know if you will read this whole thing, but im writing it anyway. We have had soo many times, and there might be more to come. Im willing to change for you danny. member that one night i cried like really bad when you were over my house cause i was afaird of losing you, and then you cried to cause you didnt like seeing me cried and you said to me "your never going to lose me, im never going to let you go" i remember that. we were laying in bed in the dark. well actually with my lava lamp on. And remember Christmas, when you got me that bear, the shirts, and the brother bear dvd, and remember what i got you.. The pool table thing, the socks, the shins shirt, and the timmy stuff toy.. my gifts werent even close to what you got me, but i tried.. And then News Years Eve we went out to the park, and then we came home ate and then we kissed at 12 and the next day i came over, and your mom had that party, and all your family wanted to meet me lol, and i was shy .. And like sometimes when you didnt go to school i would stay home too. And how we planed to have one or two sleep overs, during break.. And how you said when you get your car, youd pick me up and wed go to the park. Danny. im willing to go to the park every day. yesterday i went out back and i practice doing an olie i was comming close but then i feel .. but i got back up and i kept doing it, cause im dedicated to you, so im going to try to learn how to do what you love. so then me and you can talk about skating, and me and you can skate sometime. well ill stop here, cause i dont know if you will read this.. But im sorry for everything, i love you so much. i really dont want to lose you completely.
[101104 - 4-17-05
Love Always & Forver
Stacey
danny i dont know what happen.. just last week you were saying i love you.. On the bus that one day when i kicked matt you said "i dont know what i would do without you" and Just last weekend when you got into that fight with you mom, i was right there trying to help you idk if i was helping or not. but i was there and i asked you if you want to break up and you said no theres nothing better. and then when we got back together you wrote that note saying you dont know why you wanted that break .. and you and i colide .. and how you missed us.. this weekend im sorry i annoyied you.. i didnt know you didnt want me not to text you all weekend other wise i wouldnt have. i really hope you still love me, and i hope maybe we can sort some of this out.. And i hope you dont really like Ally that way. you mean so much to me danny, without you i feel so lost. remember we fit together like a puzzel.. and remember all the times we had together.. do you just want to throw it all away like that.. Yeah i know i get you mad but im sorry.. i thought i put a smile on your face and made you laugh alot. i try too .. i love being with you danny, you make me soo happy inside you have no idea.. Remember that day that you cried with me, and said that it feels like i have been there forever. And remember that time at you house awhile ago when we got into a hug fight and you yelled at me and told me to leave you house and never come back you dont want to see me.. And then we settled it. and we watch the brave little toster, and i feel asleep and you started to cry cause you were worried about messing things up with us. Danny. i love you. I was looking in my math notebook and i read something you wrote to me Stacey + Danny <3 Forever. You one the first one to say you wanted to marry me, and you wanted to be with me for a long time. And we said that together for the longest time. i hope your feelings didnt just change lke that. My wont ever. i just want to settle this. You mean so much to me.. Remember that one time i went to the skate park for you, and i sat in the cold for like 5 hrs. just for you, just cause i love you, my parents said they would have come picked me up but i didnt go cause i wanted to stay with you and watch you skate cause i like watching you. Then remember we went to dinner with your family and remembe that fat lady that sat behind us. lol, and how you took a fork, maybe it was just cause you knew i was going to ask you to, but you remembered before i did. and you took one before i asked you. and then in the car you rested your head on my leg, and we kind of laid down together. Then when we went to dinner with my parents and everyone on easter and then we went to your house after and when we ate with your parents i didnt ask for the butter cause i was scared to lol .. and remember our sleep overs lol .. we watched saw, and we woke up together in eachothers arms, and you said to me the first time "hows it feel to wake up to my face in the morning" and i said "amazing" and you said you cant wait til we wake up next to eachother everyday. And remember how we always like planed out where we were going to get married and how our wedding would be.. and what our house would look like.. And how you would be riding your skate board from place to place and i would be riding my moose around lol .. and how we were going to get 10 ferrets.. and like 4 dogs .. and we were going to have a room where noone goes in. And all that cool stuff, and you said you would bring me with you if you ever go on tour. Notice how i remember everything you say to me, cause everything you say to me means so much. I remember basically everything that we have talked about and that we have planed. and i wont forget them. they mean so much to me. And how you said that one times "once we make it to a year then it will be two years then three then so on" And the promise ring you got me. and how i skipped school and stayed home to hang out with you on valentines day, and remember you walked all the way to my house in the rain, and that really meant alot to me. And that one day i rode your moms bike all the way to your house just to see you on 51105. And the bubble bath we took together that day. And the showers that we have taken together. And all the times that we have falling alseep together. And we played in the snow that one day, and we shoved snow that one day, and my mom made us breakfast that one day. And that day at the fight i was there and i was hitting brett and everything, i tried my best. Cause i seriously started to hurt when i seen you bleed. Whatever happens to you happens to me. You are seriously like my other half. i have feelings for you that you dont even know about. I smile when i hear your name or i see your pic, or i read something you wrote to me. I get so happy. i know alot of girls like you, and i know i dont compare to any of them. and there is nothing i can do about that. i dont know how many times i have said this but danny i love you so much. and i dont know if any of this will help the situation. but ill try anything. If we cant go back out, can we atleast have what we had when we were on the break. I was still happy then, i was extremely happy but i was happy. i am only extremely happy unless im with you. Thats when i can smile from ear to ear, and thats when my cheeks hurt from smiling so much. If you want me to stop asking so many question i will cause i relized i ask alot. and im sorry, i just have low self esteem.. i cant help that.. right now i have no self esteem. i feel like shit.. i dont want to make you feel bad or anything with this.. i dont know if you will read this whole thing, but im writing it anyway. We have had soo many times, and there might be more to come. Im willing to change for you danny. member that one night i cried like really bad when you were over my house cause i was afaird of losing you, and then you cried to cause you didnt like seeing me cried and you said to me "your never going to lose me, im never going to let you go" i remember that. we were laying in bed in the dark. well actually with my lava lamp on. And remember Christmas, when you got me that bear, the shirts, and the brother bear dvd, and remember what i got you.. The pool table thing, the socks, the shins shirt, and the timmy stuff toy.. my gifts werent even close to what you got me, but i tried.. And then News Years Eve we went out to the park, and then we came home ate and then we kissed at 12 and the next day i came over, and your mom had that party, and all your family wanted to meet me lol, and i was shy .. And like sometimes when you didnt go to school i would stay home too. And how we planed to have one or two sleep overs, during break.. And how you said when you get your car, youd pick me up and wed go to the park. Danny. im willing to go to the park every day. yesterday i went out back and i practice doing an olie i was comming close but then i feel .. but i got back up and i kept doing it, cause im dedicated to you, so im going to try to learn how to do what you love. so then me and you can talk about skating, and me and you can skate sometime. well ill stop here, cause i dont know if you will read this.. But im sorry for everything, i love you so much. i really dont want to lose you completely.
[101104 - 4-17-05
Love Always & Forver
Stacey