i didnt mean to fall inlove with
well he was just over, and it wasnt as good as i was hoping it would be.
he doesnt act like he loves me seriously. The things he says and the things he does, seem to be hitting me alot harder now since were not together. Why wont he just go out with me? he says he loves me and what not? i dont understand it. God i really thought this wasnt ever going to happen to us. i thought he would love me forever and want to be with me forever. God i believe him, every word he said. i still do. But he keeps changing his mind. Its killing me. i love him very much.
I really really do. Why is this happening. I still think were meant to be, i still think hes the only one for me. People say "Guys suck" "there scum" "there all the same" i always say.. THIS ONES DIFFERENT. Cause he is. Noone ever loved me like he did. Noone meant this much to me. I couldnt tell anyone half the stuff i tell him. It was perfect. I felt like i had a boyfriend and a best friend forever. I thought nothing would ever go wrong. God, it all came right back in my face. I dont think he seriously is ever going to love me like he use to, i dont think he is ever going to ask me out again. this is killing me.
today when he wasnt in school, and he was out with his friends. I didnt mind. i really didnt. i was happy he was having fun and what not. He can go out with me and do that, it wont bother me. it really wont. i want him to be happy, even if that means i have to be sad. And dont worry im sad. I cant stop thinking about him.
When he was over and he got mad over something, i was looking at a pic that was on my night stand and it was a pic of me and him together, and it made me cry. i had to lay it down.
Dan might think im a freaking baby. but if he knew how i felt hed understand. i think the other day he called me a pussy cause i was crying. i cant help it i seriously cant. Every day i want to cry.
Since this has happen, i cant eat as much i us to. I FUCKING WEIGHT 86 POUNDS ! i dont like it, and when i try to eat alot i cant. i just cant. its hard. i couldnt even eat the whole half of a shorty at wawa i got sick.
i really just want danny to feel the way he felt about me 10~11~04<3
comment.. let me know what you think i should do..
he doesnt act like he loves me seriously. The things he says and the things he does, seem to be hitting me alot harder now since were not together. Why wont he just go out with me? he says he loves me and what not? i dont understand it. God i really thought this wasnt ever going to happen to us. i thought he would love me forever and want to be with me forever. God i believe him, every word he said. i still do. But he keeps changing his mind. Its killing me. i love him very much.
I really really do. Why is this happening. I still think were meant to be, i still think hes the only one for me. People say "Guys suck" "there scum" "there all the same" i always say.. THIS ONES DIFFERENT. Cause he is. Noone ever loved me like he did. Noone meant this much to me. I couldnt tell anyone half the stuff i tell him. It was perfect. I felt like i had a boyfriend and a best friend forever. I thought nothing would ever go wrong. God, it all came right back in my face. I dont think he seriously is ever going to love me like he use to, i dont think he is ever going to ask me out again. this is killing me.
today when he wasnt in school, and he was out with his friends. I didnt mind. i really didnt. i was happy he was having fun and what not. He can go out with me and do that, it wont bother me. it really wont. i want him to be happy, even if that means i have to be sad. And dont worry im sad. I cant stop thinking about him.
When he was over and he got mad over something, i was looking at a pic that was on my night stand and it was a pic of me and him together, and it made me cry. i had to lay it down.
Dan might think im a freaking baby. but if he knew how i felt hed understand. i think the other day he called me a pussy cause i was crying. i cant help it i seriously cant. Every day i want to cry.
Since this has happen, i cant eat as much i us to. I FUCKING WEIGHT 86 POUNDS ! i dont like it, and when i try to eat alot i cant. i just cant. its hard. i couldnt even eat the whole half of a shorty at wawa i got sick.
i really just want danny to feel the way he felt about me 10~11~04<3
comment.. let me know what you think i should do..