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wow...its been a while. well, since i no longer have any friends within this network i will speak of whatever id like. Well several developments occurred since we last spoke. One, school is over, i passed the ap test, and molly and i split. the latter of which has affected me the most naturally. we broke up in late june, a week following my birthday, reason being we are too different. well to tell you the truth, that is very true. i see where she was coming from, but the eerie sense of betrayal remains. She has found some one else, one evan sotelo. ive never met him, so i will not address him in a negative fashion. She apparently has taken quite a shine to him. Me on the other hand i was down in the dumps for quite a while, id attempt to speak with molly, but would irrationally explode in fits of bitterness. Presently, i understand the decision and can respect it from a distance. Though i am at peace with the situation at the moment, i am all but occupied, in fact i would almost certainly call myself lonesome. i miss every second of my former relationship, for i felt needed, but most importantly wanted. Now, i just live in full desire to gain ground within my own life. You'd would think this would fullfill a sense of freedom, but it does not. I miss molly, her touch, her presence, or maybe just the representation of me being desired. I no longer belong to any organization, and am secluded to the reach of my devil mother. She attempts tom rule every aspect of my life. Rebel as i have done, only has strenghtened her grasp, the span of two years of which i must live under her wrath will be strenuous to say the least. But that brings me top another dilemma, maybe i needed molly, i needed her touch her presence to escapre from the reality that is my household. Though this all emerges in what if form, i can honestly say that the relationship has changed who i am as a person, not for better or worse, but in the experience of life.