This is an identity crisis, it is only an identity crisis, if this were a real emergency............

[thatgirly]

I helped one of my co-workers do her homework tonight, and was reminded of how much I used to enjoy school. The project she is working on has absolutely nothing to do with anything I really know about, but I was able to figure it out, and suggest useful things, and explain the whole shebang to her. I'm really an amazingly fast learner, where charts, and graphs, and new computer software is concerned.

And suddenly, as if out of nowhere, I want to go back to school. I'm not clear on that whole "what-I-want-to-be-when-I-grow-up" thing, and the thing that I think I want to do (counseling) isn't going to put me in a position where I would get to take a lot of the classes in the fields of study that truly fascinate me. A few years ago I decided I wanted to go into marketing, because it's fun to me. The manipulation of large groups of people, the advertising, heck, even a little bit of the sales aspect interests me. And today, helping Sharna with her marketing homework I really remembered why the subject once held so much interest for me. The problem is that I can't really see myself in that career. I know I would love going to school for it, but I'm not completely certain that I could really like myself if I chose marketing as a career. Yeah, long story short:

I'm wasting my life, and I should probably quit it.