First step...check!
I am admitting I have no control over person, places or things in my life. I can only work on myself and take all this shit one day at a time (my own adaptation).
Has anyone noticed I haven't been on here in forever or my myspace? Well, super long story short...
I relapsed. Horse, tar, shit, black, smack, chiva.....
Yup, I said it. 10 years of being off of my drug of choice down the drain. Or rather, in my arm.
Today is 4 days clean and to be really honest I am fucking cranky and am still kicking so I am sweating like a fiend and a bit shaky. I am forcing myself to leave my house every morning and not come back until it is time for Liberty to get out of school. So, right this minute I am at an internet cafe sipping a 1/2 caf Latte and munching on a plain croissant. Last night I went to my first NA meeting in about 7 1/2 years. I couldn't stop crying. Felt comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time.
Yeah, so stick that in yer pipe and smoke it!
Has anyone noticed I haven't been on here in forever or my myspace? Well, super long story short...
I relapsed. Horse, tar, shit, black, smack, chiva.....
Yup, I said it. 10 years of being off of my drug of choice down the drain. Or rather, in my arm.
Today is 4 days clean and to be really honest I am fucking cranky and am still kicking so I am sweating like a fiend and a bit shaky. I am forcing myself to leave my house every morning and not come back until it is time for Liberty to get out of school. So, right this minute I am at an internet cafe sipping a 1/2 caf Latte and munching on a plain croissant. Last night I went to my first NA meeting in about 7 1/2 years. I couldn't stop crying. Felt comfortable and uncomfortable at the same time.
Yeah, so stick that in yer pipe and smoke it!