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once again i couldnt sleep last night but i cuddled with andrew all night so in a way it was ok. this morning i felt like i needed a good cry, so i read some past lj entries, but the one that hit me the hardest was the one about poppie passing :( i still miss him more than ever and i still tell him i love him and goodnight EVERY NIGHT before i go to sleep.
some people and my parents especially don't understand why i'm still depressed as of late. my dad says i have everything i could want; family, friends, a boyfriend (whom i looove), im in college. still something is missing for me. why is that when i have everything i still feel like there should be more?
i just need to search deep within myself. i need to find what is causing all this, and what i can do to get out of it. i think writing in here again is helping me, even if no one is really reading it (thanks for the comment on my last entry, meg).
i was looking through katie's old livejournal last night too. i saw all these pictures of some old friends (and some of people we're still friends with) and i had to sit and stare at a few of them just to remember the good times with them because we've gone our separate ways now. it's sad, really, but what can i do?
im waiting for katie to call me cos we're supposed to go for a jog and drink green tea together. then tonight i'm going to a mets game with her and charlie. im a yankees fan, but i figure, why not have some fun with my friends? i think during the day im going shopping with my mom, but im not sure yet.
well, i must be off. im going back to cuddling..
some people and my parents especially don't understand why i'm still depressed as of late. my dad says i have everything i could want; family, friends, a boyfriend (whom i looove), im in college. still something is missing for me. why is that when i have everything i still feel like there should be more?
i just need to search deep within myself. i need to find what is causing all this, and what i can do to get out of it. i think writing in here again is helping me, even if no one is really reading it (thanks for the comment on my last entry, meg).
i was looking through katie's old livejournal last night too. i saw all these pictures of some old friends (and some of people we're still friends with) and i had to sit and stare at a few of them just to remember the good times with them because we've gone our separate ways now. it's sad, really, but what can i do?
im waiting for katie to call me cos we're supposed to go for a jog and drink green tea together. then tonight i'm going to a mets game with her and charlie. im a yankees fan, but i figure, why not have some fun with my friends? i think during the day im going shopping with my mom, but im not sure yet.
well, i must be off. im going back to cuddling..