Sometimes even the best intentions...
turn out to be the worst mistakes...
Sitting here at the library trying despirately to find the motivation to do the last few research assignments for class that were due last week, but I'm lazy and feel like the life has been sucked right out of me. Gotta go have lunch with someone I don't really want to today, but since I have a terrible problem with saying no I now have to. Fuck you guilt. I don't remember going to sleep last night. I do remember crying before anyone came over. I cried a lot yesterday. Fuck San Francisco, I hope it breaks of of cali and sinks to the bottom of the ocean. I hope that your decisions make you happy because they sometimes aid in making me miserable. It is not really fair that I get to be the one to know and she gets the comfort that comes with a lie. Which person does that say more for? I get truth but then I'm told to wait till you figure out what is going on inside your head and inside your heart with her...she just gets you till Wens. I hate both of you right now. In fact the thought of it all is actually making me physically ill. 4th period in 2 months almost over. Gotta go to the doctor tomorrow and find out whats wrong. I don't want to monitor the photo lab tonight but I know if I close it a lot of photo 1 kids will be pissed off...that may actually make me feel better, if only for a moment till the never ending guilt set in. I think I'm dying.
Sitting here at the library trying despirately to find the motivation to do the last few research assignments for class that were due last week, but I'm lazy and feel like the life has been sucked right out of me. Gotta go have lunch with someone I don't really want to today, but since I have a terrible problem with saying no I now have to. Fuck you guilt. I don't remember going to sleep last night. I do remember crying before anyone came over. I cried a lot yesterday. Fuck San Francisco, I hope it breaks of of cali and sinks to the bottom of the ocean. I hope that your decisions make you happy because they sometimes aid in making me miserable. It is not really fair that I get to be the one to know and she gets the comfort that comes with a lie. Which person does that say more for? I get truth but then I'm told to wait till you figure out what is going on inside your head and inside your heart with her...she just gets you till Wens. I hate both of you right now. In fact the thought of it all is actually making me physically ill. 4th period in 2 months almost over. Gotta go to the doctor tomorrow and find out whats wrong. I don't want to monitor the photo lab tonight but I know if I close it a lot of photo 1 kids will be pissed off...that may actually make me feel better, if only for a moment till the never ending guilt set in. I think I'm dying.