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i read some one's livejournal entry and it kinda struck me. it was about love, and i don't know why but i haven't been feeling love for anyone or anything recently all that much. i haven't felt hate, or compassion, or bitterness, or basically any kind of emotion at all. i mean, i know that i have love for people and things and God and stuff but it seems to only be embedded and not surfaced. i find it hard to concentrate with anything (conversations, lectures, class, even Bible studies) but at the same time when my mind is wandering, it is into nothing. when i day dream i'm not thinking about anything at all, no passions that i have, no dispairs, no feelings at all. it's like i'm just kinda living. i'm really tired and feel very heavy (in maybe the spiritual way, not that i'm fat). the only emotion i seem to find is a deep nostalgia for things from last year, and the summer, and even the very very begining of this year. and yet when anybody says anything to me about a character flaw or gets in the least upset with me, i feel really gravely sad. does that seem weird to anyone? have any of you felt that? please share.