austin, and the inexplicable stupidity of my brothers.
this week was okay, i went to Austin to visit my parents and try to bury the hatchet that seems to be between us. It was eventful nonetheless, but as usual i will keep my lj cryptic and nondescript. tacky and irrelevant works too.
i need to find my cam so i can post some recent pics. its been nearly four months since i had an incident, and 2 days ago was the breaking point. four months gone with one clean, pristine, soul freeing swipe. don't fucking judge me if you know what i am talking about, i really couldn't care. people have different ways of coping with things, mine is just a little you stutter, say things you don't mean, or that just shouldn't be said.. odder than getting crazy drunk and beating your wife, or driving like a maniac for no reason.
you ever talk to someone after a while and it feels like losing them all over again?..you stutter, say things you don't mean, or that shouldn't be said... and you know she really wants you to just shut the fuck up, but you just can't. yeah, it happens often in my case i guess. i just need to shut up already.
i wish i was in Atlanta. Lindsey is super cool, and i love her sarcasm. seriously, whenever I've been feeling sad, i can talk to her or call her up and she just knows how to make me feel better inside. its eerie, but i love it. i just, well.. i wish things could be more tactile between us. whatever. i'm just lame.
fuck. that is all..
its 4 am and i can't sleep.. someone should get online. anyone...
help.
i need to find my cam so i can post some recent pics. its been nearly four months since i had an incident, and 2 days ago was the breaking point. four months gone with one clean, pristine, soul freeing swipe. don't fucking judge me if you know what i am talking about, i really couldn't care. people have different ways of coping with things, mine is just a little you stutter, say things you don't mean, or that just shouldn't be said.. odder than getting crazy drunk and beating your wife, or driving like a maniac for no reason.
you ever talk to someone after a while and it feels like losing them all over again?..you stutter, say things you don't mean, or that shouldn't be said... and you know she really wants you to just shut the fuck up, but you just can't. yeah, it happens often in my case i guess. i just need to shut up already.
i wish i was in Atlanta. Lindsey is super cool, and i love her sarcasm. seriously, whenever I've been feeling sad, i can talk to her or call her up and she just knows how to make me feel better inside. its eerie, but i love it. i just, well.. i wish things could be more tactile between us. whatever. i'm just lame.
fuck. that is all..
its 4 am and i can't sleep.. someone should get online. anyone...
help.