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so I did"t write for a while.
sue me.
:P
anyways, I've had a really tense week last week, a more stressful one this week and next week I am expecting to lay like broccoli and vegetate on the couch.
work - is evil.
well no, the people I work with are very nice and all, the the people that are in charge on the bnot sherut must have been in the bathroom when god was handing out "nice" and "consideration for others". basically they want me to work forever and ever and ever and ever and ever for no pay. I ended up saying no and I'm going to finish my last sherut days in petach tikva (I'm leaving the office on tuesday).
it's just a pity the had put a bad taste on mt sherut leumi experience.
wedding #1-
a) shabbat kala- I had a great time going to michal vises (now landenberg) shabbat. I met people I hadn't met for a long time and I gotta say it was fun to sing shabbat songs all day. only problem was that at some point I felt like a screw ball for not being te normal religious midrasha girl.
I mean, I looked at the girls around me and I know I have just as much faith and endless love to god and my religion, so much pride to be from the jewish people and I would give up almost anything I had for the love of my god. but then I look at the girls aound me and I wonder why I can't dance and feel happy like them, why can't I sing a shabbat song and feel lifted or have to live with the knowledge that after about a month in a midrasha I would go crazy. why can' I be like everyone else in showing my religious beliefs. why must my belief come out in private in my poems, pictures and photos. don't people know that one of the reasons I went into photography was to catch gods beautiful world and show the hope in it to others? don't people understand that I don't finish sentences with "god willing" because in my head everything is obviously by gods will it would be like mentioning that the sky is blue.
b) wedding - the wedding was really nice. michal looked beautiful and I loved the goofy smile she had on her face when she saw ariel (the groom). the music was outstanding. no really, I don't know when and where I'm getting married but I know I want the band that played at the wedding. I loved the music so much I ended up dancing for like two hours (and I don't dance) which calmed one of my big life long wedding fears that I won't want to dance and I'll be forced to by my mom and plain peer pressure.
wedding #2 -
a) shabbat kala - was great as every shabbat with the girls.
only problem was that there was no air conditioning and I think at some point I was close to tears from the sheer heat and humidity. I can't believe michal is getting married, I mean sure I knew it was coming (they've been dating for two years) but she's like the kid sister in the group. she's my little pink thing!
I also had a really nice and long conversation with yael and adi, man I love those girls, how can they always get me to calm down and feel better I don't know but somehow they always can.
b) wedding - well it hasn't happened yet but I'm really excited.
as I said already, I can't believe michal is getting married.
haims coming with me to the wedding which is exciting and scared.
wedding #3 - no comment
Sherut - I'm leaving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haim - I love. I just realized last week that we'll soon be together 4 months. 4 months! dude that a 1/3 of a year.
I'd be more scared about in and blah blah like everything else about haim, every time I see him the fears go away and I just love him.
*wrote a lot*
*is tiered*
ttfn