i felt the cold wind of the coming storm, all because of you.
My one year anniversary is right around the corner. July 10, 2011 will be one year to the day when everything changed. I can't believe things got this far so quickly. Even more than that, I can't believe time flew by so fast. I've never felt so close to anybody in my entire life and words cannot accurately convey how incredible I feel when I am with him. It's funny because I truly believe that falling in love with someone is the most dangerous thing a person can do. You're basically putting a gun in another person's hand and trusting that they wont pull the trigger. You give them the power to destroy you. Well, Brett could hold it to my head and i wouldn't flinch.
I'm not one to believe in all of that soul mate shit or in people being spiritually connected and this and that, but every once in a while and more frequently when we make love, I just get this feeling that we are the only two people on the planet, and I've never felt so connected to reality before or possessed that much raw emotion about anything in my life. It's like every so often I get hit by this incredible wave that THIS is what I deserved all those years. I know it's silly and I know he laughs at me for it, but I could watch him watching me forever. I felt that very same way last night and I suppose that is what prompted this.
Marriage and kids were always something I aspired to, without really having a clue when all of that would take place. However, none of it was for the right reasons. I guess I just felt like after so long and wading through so much shit, it was something that I had coming to me, like it was owed to me. My consolation prize, if you will, for being such a good cookie year after year and sitting back quietly while my ex boyfriend tore me apart. It doesn't happen often, but when Brett says something that alludes to us having kids and getting married and the future for the two of us, I just get so ridiculously smitten and I don't want him to stop talking. Don't get me wrong, we are definitely not financially ready for that, and I am not in a rush to start popping out babies... but I would be lying if I said the biggest cheesiest grin doesn't stretch across my face at the thought of having kids with him. Like I've told him before, I'm not concerned with when it all happens, because he and I have never done things at a normal pace throughout our relationship. And I'm not in a rush, because he's stuck with me whether he likes it or not. (haha)
As far as the new job goes (yayyyyyyy) I work Monday through Thursday at a CPA Firm in Plantation. Come tax season I will be working Monday through Friday and getting a ton of overtime more than likely. My first week there was pretty intense at first, but as the end of the week drew nearer, it slowed down a bit. I was working with Lili, the girl who is training me, all day on Monday and then the next day she took her vacation to go to Vegas. I was there by myself the rest of the week working with this guy Josh who is one of my bosses' sons. Everyone there is very nice and extremely helpful. My bosses are a bit quirky in their own way, but I tend to feel like I'm one of those individuals who adapts to the personalities around me once I figure them out, and I can be an exceptional people person because of that. It's just a matter of time, I suppose, and warming up to everyone around me. Lili comes back Tuesday, so that is when we will pick up on the heavier training once again. Everything was so hectic when she was preparing to go away, but I have a feeling things will be much smoother around the office when she comes back and can actually set the time aside to break down procedures with me. Honestly, I'm just really happy to be working again, and to be working so close to home when there is really NOTHING out there these days in the Florida job market. I feel really good about this job and it sincerely pays that my employers have told me up front that they feel REALLY good about me in this position. I know it sounds cheesy, but another huge reason I'm happy to be back at work, is that I can actually afford to get Brett an anniversary present. =] I just can't wait until I can spoil him for everything that he has been doing for me. He was really adorable about it when I told him how grateful I was that he has been so willing to help me and us out financially and how he has really been my rock. He said it was nice to be the man around here and that he enjoyed it, and I just love him to pieces for that.
I've been watching Six Feet Under over again lately. I'm up to the 5th season and actually have it downloading at the moment. I almost forgot how great this show was. I can't wait until Dexter starts up again in September.
Brett gets off work at 7 and we may or may not be going to Richard's birthday part in Ft Lauderdale. I guess we'll see what happens. I can't blame him if he doesn't wanna go out tonight after working all day/evening.
Until next time...
Just promise that you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star.
I'm not one to believe in all of that soul mate shit or in people being spiritually connected and this and that, but every once in a while and more frequently when we make love, I just get this feeling that we are the only two people on the planet, and I've never felt so connected to reality before or possessed that much raw emotion about anything in my life. It's like every so often I get hit by this incredible wave that THIS is what I deserved all those years. I know it's silly and I know he laughs at me for it, but I could watch him watching me forever. I felt that very same way last night and I suppose that is what prompted this.
Marriage and kids were always something I aspired to, without really having a clue when all of that would take place. However, none of it was for the right reasons. I guess I just felt like after so long and wading through so much shit, it was something that I had coming to me, like it was owed to me. My consolation prize, if you will, for being such a good cookie year after year and sitting back quietly while my ex boyfriend tore me apart. It doesn't happen often, but when Brett says something that alludes to us having kids and getting married and the future for the two of us, I just get so ridiculously smitten and I don't want him to stop talking. Don't get me wrong, we are definitely not financially ready for that, and I am not in a rush to start popping out babies... but I would be lying if I said the biggest cheesiest grin doesn't stretch across my face at the thought of having kids with him. Like I've told him before, I'm not concerned with when it all happens, because he and I have never done things at a normal pace throughout our relationship. And I'm not in a rush, because he's stuck with me whether he likes it or not. (haha)
As far as the new job goes (yayyyyyyy) I work Monday through Thursday at a CPA Firm in Plantation. Come tax season I will be working Monday through Friday and getting a ton of overtime more than likely. My first week there was pretty intense at first, but as the end of the week drew nearer, it slowed down a bit. I was working with Lili, the girl who is training me, all day on Monday and then the next day she took her vacation to go to Vegas. I was there by myself the rest of the week working with this guy Josh who is one of my bosses' sons. Everyone there is very nice and extremely helpful. My bosses are a bit quirky in their own way, but I tend to feel like I'm one of those individuals who adapts to the personalities around me once I figure them out, and I can be an exceptional people person because of that. It's just a matter of time, I suppose, and warming up to everyone around me. Lili comes back Tuesday, so that is when we will pick up on the heavier training once again. Everything was so hectic when she was preparing to go away, but I have a feeling things will be much smoother around the office when she comes back and can actually set the time aside to break down procedures with me. Honestly, I'm just really happy to be working again, and to be working so close to home when there is really NOTHING out there these days in the Florida job market. I feel really good about this job and it sincerely pays that my employers have told me up front that they feel REALLY good about me in this position. I know it sounds cheesy, but another huge reason I'm happy to be back at work, is that I can actually afford to get Brett an anniversary present. =] I just can't wait until I can spoil him for everything that he has been doing for me. He was really adorable about it when I told him how grateful I was that he has been so willing to help me and us out financially and how he has really been my rock. He said it was nice to be the man around here and that he enjoyed it, and I just love him to pieces for that.
I've been watching Six Feet Under over again lately. I'm up to the 5th season and actually have it downloading at the moment. I almost forgot how great this show was. I can't wait until Dexter starts up again in September.
Brett gets off work at 7 and we may or may not be going to Richard's birthday part in Ft Lauderdale. I guess we'll see what happens. I can't blame him if he doesn't wanna go out tonight after working all day/evening.
Until next time...
Just promise that you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star.