"be observant"...FUCK YOU!

[thatcrazyazn]

i feel like a failure. not jus cuz im down or depressed. more because people make me feel that way. more specifically my parents. i have a problem where i cant remember everything/anything they tell me to do. and when they ask if i've done it. they say it in a way that they are soo disappointed and that i should be ashamed of myself. they make it seem like im a disgrace to the family. i cant help that i dont remember certain things. they just tell me to try harder..as if its such an easy thing to change. my mom expects me to see everything out of place in the house and to fix it. when i dont she tells me about it. always ending her sentence with "be observant"..do any of you know how annoying it is to be constantly told those words..not to mention that they're told in that disappointed tone of voice. i fucking have those words etched into my brain with a freaking knife! it upsets me, my parents upset me. i just want them to be proud of me. no matter how proud of me they are about one thing, they're equally as disappointed and upset about another. there isnt a point so im not trying anymore to please them. i'll please myself cuz in the long run, that will be the only thing that matters.
im done here